B.O.D meeting
Today morning woke up earlier than usual, coz got the LEP immersion 体检 at Outram. And i was meeting Jaime at 7:40am. It was weird, taking MRT in the opposite direction of TJC from BEDOK Interchange. This MJC girl was like staring at me while i got into the MRT. hahaha... she muz be thinking... "Isn she from TJ? Isn this Bedok?" In the end, got there 10+min earlier, and saw Zi Xin and Wen Jie there. So we chatted for a while before Jaime, who got lost from the NEL to the EWL found her way to us.
The body checkup was quite fast. And nothing much too... so early, there were so few patients lor. So the whole thing was like super fast. Ended so early, even though we tried to drag on. Then we decided to go to ChinaTown to eat 花生糊 and 杏仁糊 etc... from this shophouse opp Macs. We sat at macs for sometime before that shop opened, and the desserts were really very nice! I ate gui1 lin2 gao1. It was nice lor. Mmmm... Haha. But cuz we were all in sch U. (except a certain extra someone) and eating so leisurely at CHINATOWN, we look like we specially 旷课 to eat at that shophouse. hahaha...
Then after a long debate at the platform of NEL - ChinaTown, we dragged ourselves back to school. I wanted to go back for Civics, cuz with M.G, its rather be safe than sorry. And when i found out HuiMin was in sch, i wanted to go and see her. So long nv see her, miss her so much, and so much to tell her and she also had alot to tell me.
Back at college, i went to LEP room and spent 1 whole period listening to JingFu talk abt his sec sch-VS 趣事. Some were super funny, and me and Chun Hsien were like laughing our heads off, we both almost fell off our seats. Actually the thing itself isn funny, its the way JingFu related it to us. hahaha. he's a born comedian. i sat with HuiMin in canteen while she had lunch after her maths tutorial. Than we had like so much to talk about! And Hui Min told me abt College events these few days etc. Than got back to LEP room and sat there and talked with whoever was there till bell ring. Saw some seniors like Si Xiong, Wan Yi and Andrew in college, in LEP room wif us. But in general, college's like so empty! Even worse than when the seniors had study break! Hui Min said that the LEP cohort only 24... we have like 50+ pple lor! Than our class only 10 in the morning... meaning 15 nv come! Haha... this week everybody stay at home and have their OWN study leave.
Than, as i was saying, the bell rang and i felt pretty reluctant to go for B.O.D meeting, although it was like the only thing apart from civics which i came back to college for la. Then i waited for Andrew, Si Xiong and Wan Yi to leave LEP room for sometime... than i dragged myself out of LEP room. Haha... still met them at the stairs, cuz they walk too slowly. anywayz, i went for B.O.D meeting, there was nobody there. Finally saw Yen Mei who nv come sch today and only come back to college for b.o.d meeting, so she trying to avoid her CT. haha. Peng Juay appeared, and the three of us just sat there and stone. Jing Fen came round, and Yen Mei asked her to join our meeting. haha.
Finally, Kee Liang like rushed over and sat down with us and started calling Cai Lin, Pei Shan etc... while i told him "Arthur Civics, Cai Lin Civics.... Michelle Civics...Eunice went home..." But he insisted that the meeting cannot start without Cai lin and Pei Shan. Then while waiting, he sat down with his B.O.D meeting log and started the meeting.
"We have this very important LEO event la. But it is during our study leave. So we have decided to push the event forward..."
I was only half listening la. Than Ernnie came and told me CIVICS CANCELLED!! ARGH. means i only came back for B.O.D meeting???? Geez. Tahn i turned back Kee Liang was still trying to contact Cai Lin la. So i said "nvm la. Let's have the meeting first lor." (Cuz HuiMin waiting for me to go home.) Kee liang said, "Cannot."
"Why?"
"Cuz Cai Lin is holding on to your present."
"What?"
"Yah. Oh. Ooops. haha, anyway that impt LEO event is your bdae."
"Oh"
*Stunned*
Yen Mei then told Kee Liang, "No, the present wif me la." Haha...i was still stunned when i saw Pei Shan running to us with a cake. They lit the candles while i was still completely stunned. Stanley joined us. They sang Happi bdae to me... and i was STILL stunned. I made a wish, and blew out the candle, still shocked.
Huh? I mean, how stupid can i get? We used the same thing on Eunice and Arthur lor. Except that was a completely unsuccessful, super unnatural and extremely easy to 识破 version la. But still!!! I was so tired these days i din even think abt it, the thought din even enter my mind. I din even think why kee Liang kept asking day in day out if i can come for the meeting. I din think why Cai Lin HAD to come for the meeting.
Andy walked past and we invited him over... He said that is like the most basic way of giving a B.O.D member a suprise. hahah... 我真够笨了。Ge Yeong rushed over last min to give me a big hug. Haha. I was still stunned all the while. Then we cut the cake and everyone ate some and i got jaime and HuiMin to come down eat a bit cuz cannot finish. The B.O.D gave me a very nice small "LittleMatchGirl" bag and a white and blue-green billabong wallet. Hahahaha... and the funny part was, Kee Liang was the one that bought it on saturday. Kee Liang, the biggest mugger of the B.O.D actually deferred from studying for an afternoon and went to shop for me prezzie. WOW. And he and Cai Lin got not bad taste, the gifts were REALLY very nice. And i needed a new wallet. I din tell them, Kee Liang said he observed that my wallet very old le. hahaha...
And i got a hug from Jing Fen. A handshake from Marcus. haha.
I was pretty touched. cuz.
Kee Liang and Cai Lin went out one week b4 promos to buy my prezzie.
Yen mei skipped sch today, specially came back 2 celebrate my bdae.
B.O.D members ran off from Civics to come and wish me happi bdae.
They remembered.
I got my suprise.
Thanks.
I love the bag.
I love the wallet.
I love u all.
=)
sighz. but there are other things going wrong now. My frenz need to study, cant go out. this and that. nvm...
Joyce at 8:57 PM
The body checkup was quite fast. And nothing much too... so early, there were so few patients lor. So the whole thing was like super fast. Ended so early, even though we tried to drag on. Then we decided to go to ChinaTown to eat 花生糊 and 杏仁糊 etc... from this shophouse opp Macs. We sat at macs for sometime before that shop opened, and the desserts were really very nice! I ate gui1 lin2 gao1. It was nice lor. Mmmm... Haha. But cuz we were all in sch U. (except a certain extra someone) and eating so leisurely at CHINATOWN, we look like we specially 旷课 to eat at that shophouse. hahaha...
Then after a long debate at the platform of NEL - ChinaTown, we dragged ourselves back to school. I wanted to go back for Civics, cuz with M.G, its rather be safe than sorry. And when i found out HuiMin was in sch, i wanted to go and see her. So long nv see her, miss her so much, and so much to tell her and she also had alot to tell me.
Back at college, i went to LEP room and spent 1 whole period listening to JingFu talk abt his sec sch-VS 趣事. Some were super funny, and me and Chun Hsien were like laughing our heads off, we both almost fell off our seats. Actually the thing itself isn funny, its the way JingFu related it to us. hahaha. he's a born comedian. i sat with HuiMin in canteen while she had lunch after her maths tutorial. Than we had like so much to talk about! And Hui Min told me abt College events these few days etc. Than got back to LEP room and sat there and talked with whoever was there till bell ring. Saw some seniors like Si Xiong, Wan Yi and Andrew in college, in LEP room wif us. But in general, college's like so empty! Even worse than when the seniors had study break! Hui Min said that the LEP cohort only 24... we have like 50+ pple lor! Than our class only 10 in the morning... meaning 15 nv come! Haha... this week everybody stay at home and have their OWN study leave.
Than, as i was saying, the bell rang and i felt pretty reluctant to go for B.O.D meeting, although it was like the only thing apart from civics which i came back to college for la. Then i waited for Andrew, Si Xiong and Wan Yi to leave LEP room for sometime... than i dragged myself out of LEP room. Haha... still met them at the stairs, cuz they walk too slowly. anywayz, i went for B.O.D meeting, there was nobody there. Finally saw Yen Mei who nv come sch today and only come back to college for b.o.d meeting, so she trying to avoid her CT. haha. Peng Juay appeared, and the three of us just sat there and stone. Jing Fen came round, and Yen Mei asked her to join our meeting. haha.
Finally, Kee Liang like rushed over and sat down with us and started calling Cai Lin, Pei Shan etc... while i told him "Arthur Civics, Cai Lin Civics.... Michelle Civics...Eunice went home..." But he insisted that the meeting cannot start without Cai lin and Pei Shan. Then while waiting, he sat down with his B.O.D meeting log and started the meeting.
"We have this very important LEO event la. But it is during our study leave. So we have decided to push the event forward..."
I was only half listening la. Than Ernnie came and told me CIVICS CANCELLED!! ARGH. means i only came back for B.O.D meeting???? Geez. Tahn i turned back Kee Liang was still trying to contact Cai Lin la. So i said "nvm la. Let's have the meeting first lor." (Cuz HuiMin waiting for me to go home.) Kee liang said, "Cannot."
"Why?"
"Cuz Cai Lin is holding on to your present."
"What?"
"Yah. Oh. Ooops. haha, anyway that impt LEO event is your bdae."
"Oh"
*Stunned*
Yen Mei then told Kee Liang, "No, the present wif me la." Haha...i was still stunned when i saw Pei Shan running to us with a cake. They lit the candles while i was still completely stunned. Stanley joined us. They sang Happi bdae to me... and i was STILL stunned. I made a wish, and blew out the candle, still shocked.
Huh? I mean, how stupid can i get? We used the same thing on Eunice and Arthur lor. Except that was a completely unsuccessful, super unnatural and extremely easy to 识破 version la. But still!!! I was so tired these days i din even think abt it, the thought din even enter my mind. I din even think why kee Liang kept asking day in day out if i can come for the meeting. I din think why Cai Lin HAD to come for the meeting.
Andy walked past and we invited him over... He said that is like the most basic way of giving a B.O.D member a suprise. hahah... 我真够笨了。Ge Yeong rushed over last min to give me a big hug. Haha. I was still stunned all the while. Then we cut the cake and everyone ate some and i got jaime and HuiMin to come down eat a bit cuz cannot finish. The B.O.D gave me a very nice small "LittleMatchGirl" bag and a white and blue-green billabong wallet. Hahahaha... and the funny part was, Kee Liang was the one that bought it on saturday. Kee Liang, the biggest mugger of the B.O.D actually deferred from studying for an afternoon and went to shop for me prezzie. WOW. And he and Cai Lin got not bad taste, the gifts were REALLY very nice. And i needed a new wallet. I din tell them, Kee Liang said he observed that my wallet very old le. hahaha...
And i got a hug from Jing Fen. A handshake from Marcus. haha.
I was pretty touched. cuz.
Kee Liang and Cai Lin went out one week b4 promos to buy my prezzie.
Yen mei skipped sch today, specially came back 2 celebrate my bdae.
B.O.D members ran off from Civics to come and wish me happi bdae.
They remembered.
I got my suprise.
Thanks.
I love the bag.
I love the wallet.
I love u all.
=)
sighz. but there are other things going wrong now. My frenz need to study, cant go out. this and that. nvm...
Joyce at 8:57 PM
u need to be busy.
staying at home is not good.
other than mugging. which i am not very consistent or enthu abt... u have FAR too much time on hand to think too much. seriously.
U start thinking abt things that should be left to after-promos thinking. not before-promos thinking. Because if u push it to before-promos thinking, that's the end of u and ur promos. Like wad happened to me during JCT. And i DON WAN history to repeat itself.
So i'm all set to return to college (haha.. technically, i'm not exactly returning to college tomorrow.) and see my frenz. good. The thing is... HUi Min wont be in sch. cuz she's mugging at home. Xin Ru is mugging in college and not tapping her card to take her attendance cuz she wont be attending lessons. Meaning.... i am still so alone during classes. geez. And classes without Hui Min and Xin Ru = solitary = 胡思乱想 ＝ very bad. (i mean, yeah, there's Ernnie and Gladys and Siu Fen and Geraldine etc... but still, its so diff. and weird.)
wad is the point, i ask u?
Joyce at 7:46 PM
other than mugging. which i am not very consistent or enthu abt... u have FAR too much time on hand to think too much. seriously.
U start thinking abt things that should be left to after-promos thinking. not before-promos thinking. Because if u push it to before-promos thinking, that's the end of u and ur promos. Like wad happened to me during JCT. And i DON WAN history to repeat itself.
So i'm all set to return to college (haha.. technically, i'm not exactly returning to college tomorrow.) and see my frenz. good. The thing is... HUi Min wont be in sch. cuz she's mugging at home. Xin Ru is mugging in college and not tapping her card to take her attendance cuz she wont be attending lessons. Meaning.... i am still so alone during classes. geez. And classes without Hui Min and Xin Ru = solitary = 胡思乱想 ＝ very bad. (i mean, yeah, there's Ernnie and Gladys and Siu Fen and Geraldine etc... but still, its so diff. and weird.)
wad is the point, i ask u?
Joyce at 7:46 PM
现实vs梦想
On My Way
走过和你走过的街
难过更深刻一些
有些事无法改写
我终于了解
是我把爱弄得太完美
多完美还是会枯萎
你最后那一句再见
才让我学会
怎么放爱去飞
擦干了眼泪
我不要安慰
雨季会过去才对
都是黑咖啡
苦得让我今晚不能入睡
不想活在重复的情节
你知道我想着谁
虽然梦想难免被现实打碎
I am on my way...
----------------
再也不愿意被困在过去
被你一再的锁着。
你根本不值得我这样的
无条件付出。
对不起。
我再也看不到意义。
也许朋友们说得对
从头到尾原就从没意义。
究竟是为什么
到底是为何，怎么一回事？
你的借口一定很多。
别说了。别浪费你我的时间。
这次，我不想听。也不想再管了。
你就这样离去吧。
我答应你我也会静静地告别。
更会尽全力不回头。
也许十年后我们还有相遇的可能。
那时的我们应该不同了吧。
我们各自的故事剧情会有怎样的变化？
那时的我们会是怎样，
会变得多少,
你想过吗？
hah.
那时的我们可能都不记得对方了。
Joyce at 7:15 PM
走过和你走过的街
难过更深刻一些
有些事无法改写
我终于了解
是我把爱弄得太完美
多完美还是会枯萎
你最后那一句再见
才让我学会
怎么放爱去飞
擦干了眼泪
我不要安慰
雨季会过去才对
都是黑咖啡
苦得让我今晚不能入睡
不想活在重复的情节
你知道我想着谁
虽然梦想难免被现实打碎
I am on my way...
----------------
再也不愿意被困在过去
被你一再的锁着。
你根本不值得我这样的
无条件付出。
对不起。
我再也看不到意义。
也许朋友们说得对
从头到尾原就从没意义。
究竟是为什么
到底是为何，怎么一回事？
你的借口一定很多。
别说了。别浪费你我的时间。
这次，我不想听。也不想再管了。
你就这样离去吧。
我答应你我也会静静地告别。
更会尽全力不回头。
也许十年后我们还有相遇的可能。
那时的我们应该不同了吧。
我们各自的故事剧情会有怎样的变化？
那时的我们会是怎样，
会变得多少,
你想过吗？
hah.
那时的我们可能都不记得对方了。
Joyce at 7:15 PM
自言自语
well. so much for wanting to skip sch. I am not FORCED to skip sch. geez. my tupid migraine came back. full force and worse than ever. Geez. First time the doctor gave me 2 days mc for it. Somehow the pain has affected my eyes. hmm... though my eye was painful, i din think there were any connections with my headache. now i noe.
The medicine prescribed to me is like super strong and mum says try not to eat too much (as in once the pain is bearable stop eating) if not might cause serious gastric probs and cancer and wadnot. Which is the reason why i don usually eat my migraine medicine if i can help it. (like not the kinda banging wall pain.)
ARGH. Been mugging a bit. And planned out my study schedule. one that is quite realistic. hah. i hope i manage to finish studying in time. Tomorrow got the overseas immersion body checkup at Outram, so i meeting Jaime. i hope no need vaccination or anything. hmm... but this means i only have 1 sch day this week! (mon, tue mc. Wed excuse from class cuz of body checkup. Fri start of study leave...)
Okay. enough of crap. Was lying in bed the whole of yesterday and couldn help but think abt wad i did on sunday. Was i too impulsive? Haha.. now every free moment of i have i am like trying to phrase my problem. hahaha. but knowing me, i'll like blabber my problem without any organization and the other person will be like "HUH?" which is bad. ARGH. sigh. nvm. even if i end up tongue-tied or not knowing how to start, or deciding against saying... i still have a back-up topic. which is a lame one. haha. which is... ask abt something neutral! yay. Like abt... universities! geez. i noe i'll sound like a total idiot if i do that.
sorry if only 1 of u pple will have a slight clue abt wad i am talking abt. For the others... sorry. i am juz talking to myself, u see...
Joyce at 6:53 PM
The medicine prescribed to me is like super strong and mum says try not to eat too much (as in once the pain is bearable stop eating) if not might cause serious gastric probs and cancer and wadnot. Which is the reason why i don usually eat my migraine medicine if i can help it. (like not the kinda banging wall pain.)
ARGH. Been mugging a bit. And planned out my study schedule. one that is quite realistic. hah. i hope i manage to finish studying in time. Tomorrow got the overseas immersion body checkup at Outram, so i meeting Jaime. i hope no need vaccination or anything. hmm... but this means i only have 1 sch day this week! (mon, tue mc. Wed excuse from class cuz of body checkup. Fri start of study leave...)
Okay. enough of crap. Was lying in bed the whole of yesterday and couldn help but think abt wad i did on sunday. Was i too impulsive? Haha.. now every free moment of i have i am like trying to phrase my problem. hahaha. but knowing me, i'll like blabber my problem without any organization and the other person will be like "HUH?" which is bad. ARGH. sigh. nvm. even if i end up tongue-tied or not knowing how to start, or deciding against saying... i still have a back-up topic. which is a lame one. haha. which is... ask abt something neutral! yay. Like abt... universities! geez. i noe i'll sound like a total idiot if i do that.
sorry if only 1 of u pple will have a slight clue abt wad i am talking abt. For the others... sorry. i am juz talking to myself, u see...
Joyce at 6:53 PM
67
On my way home on bus 67 today.
Remembered that i use to wish i could take 67 to school everyday. probably with Chor Ming, who lives in Kembangan. (aka-get into HC)
Hmm... i'm still taking 67 home from sch everyday
only from a diff place.
ugh.
gotta rush PW...
i need to mug!!!!
geez... maybe i should follow xin ru and skip the last week sch to study.
Joyce at 9:02 PM
Remembered that i use to wish i could take 67 to school everyday. probably with Chor Ming, who lives in Kembangan. (aka-get into HC)
Hmm... i'm still taking 67 home from sch everyday
only from a diff place.
ugh.
gotta rush PW...
i need to mug!!!!
geez... maybe i should follow xin ru and skip the last week sch to study.
Joyce at 9:02 PM
Birthday Dinner
Yesterday night was granny's bdae dinner. was pretty ok. not as boring... but cuz got home quite late, today so tired! Was like yawning the whole day from start to end.
The dinner was at some country club somewhere out there. It's a VIP room with karaoke set and everything. Than Jason gave this Osim eye mask to granny, which he bought together with Li Ling(erm. his ex-RGS girlfren from AJC). Li Ling was supposed to come for the dinner too, but her relative happen to be getting married that day, so she din come. But she called Jason's hp at the country club and wished granny happy bdae. Granny was super happy. hahaha... guess Li ling is like so totally accepted into the family. The whole world was asking "为什么Li Ling没来？"
hmmm... looks like the non-christian thing is disregarded le. Afterall, Li Ling is like woah, smart, cute, and SO GOOD to Jason. She's this eloquent, brilliant young lady who is like the Kee Liang in TJC(well-loved by the principal becoz she chose to transfer back from VJC to AJC with 8 pts raw score. Kee Liang chose to stay in TJC even with 6 pts raw score.), except she's a girl and she's in AJC. She even gave up VJC and a humanities scholarship for him. She was squash captain of RGS, gave up this RI guy... for MY COUSIN? Hmmmmmmm.....................
Haha. anyway. when Li Ling called u can totally see Jason's face go all dopey and happy. then all, the 8 cousins(excluding me and him) started crowding arnd him and trying to eavesdrop. then they kept passing the msg "it's Li Ling!!!!"
haha.
u noe wad. That's the only thing i remembered from granny's bdae dinner.
And that she's 65.
Happy bade granny!
Joyce at 8:32 PM
The dinner was at some country club somewhere out there. It's a VIP room with karaoke set and everything. Than Jason gave this Osim eye mask to granny, which he bought together with Li Ling(erm. his ex-RGS girlfren from AJC). Li Ling was supposed to come for the dinner too, but her relative happen to be getting married that day, so she din come. But she called Jason's hp at the country club and wished granny happy bdae. Granny was super happy. hahaha... guess Li ling is like so totally accepted into the family. The whole world was asking "为什么Li Ling没来？"
hmmm... looks like the non-christian thing is disregarded le. Afterall, Li Ling is like woah, smart, cute, and SO GOOD to Jason. She's this eloquent, brilliant young lady who is like the Kee Liang in TJC(well-loved by the principal becoz she chose to transfer back from VJC to AJC with 8 pts raw score. Kee Liang chose to stay in TJC even with 6 pts raw score.), except she's a girl and she's in AJC. She even gave up VJC and a humanities scholarship for him. She was squash captain of RGS, gave up this RI guy... for MY COUSIN? Hmmmmmmm.....................
Haha. anyway. when Li Ling called u can totally see Jason's face go all dopey and happy. then all, the 8 cousins(excluding me and him) started crowding arnd him and trying to eavesdrop. then they kept passing the msg "it's Li Ling!!!!"
haha.
u noe wad. That's the only thing i remembered from granny's bdae dinner.
And that she's 65.
Happy bade granny!
Joyce at 8:32 PM
TJC.HCJC.《绿缘》。《黄城夜韵》。
Met a sec sch fren yesterday:
Her: Hey, Joyce! Long time no see, so where u studying now?
Me: Haha. where i kept saying i want to be lor.
Her: Wow. Hwa Chong??
Me: Uh. No. TJC. did i keep saying i wanna go HC?
Her: Kinda. But u wanted Temasek JC too...and it's a good sch!
Me: Rite. I did.
Her: Ya. So howz TJC?
Me: It's great. I'm taking LEP too. like i wanted.
Her: Sounds good.
Me: So where u studying?
Her: Temasek Poly.
Me: I see. Also where u wanted.
Her: Ya. So u seem very happy in TJ.
Me: I am. Except i got a lousy CT. This place is super stressful and so totally a mugger sch. And my best frens are all so hardworking, its stressing me out. haha...And life's been challenging. Generally speaking. Very very very different too.
Her: Oh...
Ok. I shall not continue writing out the conversation. But the thing is... after talking to her. I realise i DID keep saying i want HC. Haha... but i actually forgot abt it. haha... and i somehow began to think that i wanted TJ from the very beginning. haha. weird. but nvm. I do like TJ alot la. And anyway, no point dwelling on something unrealistic. And even if i did qualify, a new set of probs would re-surface. It's the same everywhere (I mean, HC n TJ. For me la.). Haha... but like i told Hui Min and Xin Ru, my life is like mainly revolving around these two colleges lor. Somehow. Haha.. sensitive to a few schz uniform and these 2 are the most most sensitive one. Cuz like noe alot of pple from there. Haha... 与华初有着不解之缘。和淡初也结下了《绿缘》. hahaha... nvm. i'm crapping.
Anyway. Though i expected it all along since the change in HC's name, i felt kinda sad for HC, that 《黄城》will never be the same anymore. Think the name'll will diff too, cuz combined with Chinese High's production and all. It's like... whey! u're taking away HC's heritage lor. It's too 过分了。But guess there's nothing anyone can do. So i'm just gonna make sure i get to the last 《黄城》next year. Sigh. 为什么要这样？TJC never has affilated schz and never wants to be affilated to anyone to enable fair competition. So i guess, and i deeply hope that will never ever happen to TJ. PLease. NO.
In this world the only thing constant is change. Miak is right, At least for now.
sighz.
Alright, gotta go to a wedding at church le. And at night got granny's bdae dinner. Guess i'll be home late today. so tired.
*eh. sorry about e 黄成 thing. haha... i changed le (if not 被打。)
Joyce at 11:23 AM
Her: Hey, Joyce! Long time no see, so where u studying now?
Me: Haha. where i kept saying i want to be lor.
Her: Wow. Hwa Chong??
Me: Uh. No. TJC. did i keep saying i wanna go HC?
Her: Kinda. But u wanted Temasek JC too...and it's a good sch!
Me: Rite. I did.
Her: Ya. So howz TJC?
Me: It's great. I'm taking LEP too. like i wanted.
Her: Sounds good.
Me: So where u studying?
Her: Temasek Poly.
Me: I see. Also where u wanted.
Her: Ya. So u seem very happy in TJ.
Me: I am. Except i got a lousy CT. This place is super stressful and so totally a mugger sch. And my best frens are all so hardworking, its stressing me out. haha...And life's been challenging. Generally speaking. Very very very different too.
Her: Oh...
Ok. I shall not continue writing out the conversation. But the thing is... after talking to her. I realise i DID keep saying i want HC. Haha... but i actually forgot abt it. haha... and i somehow began to think that i wanted TJ from the very beginning. haha. weird. but nvm. I do like TJ alot la. And anyway, no point dwelling on something unrealistic. And even if i did qualify, a new set of probs would re-surface. It's the same everywhere (I mean, HC n TJ. For me la.). Haha... but like i told Hui Min and Xin Ru, my life is like mainly revolving around these two colleges lor. Somehow. Haha.. sensitive to a few schz uniform and these 2 are the most most sensitive one. Cuz like noe alot of pple from there. Haha... 与华初有着不解之缘。和淡初也结下了《绿缘》. hahaha... nvm. i'm crapping.
Anyway. Though i expected it all along since the change in HC's name, i felt kinda sad for HC, that 《黄城》will never be the same anymore. Think the name'll will diff too, cuz combined with Chinese High's production and all. It's like... whey! u're taking away HC's heritage lor. It's too 过分了。But guess there's nothing anyone can do. So i'm just gonna make sure i get to the last 《黄城》next year. Sigh. 为什么要这样？TJC never has affilated schz and never wants to be affilated to anyone to enable fair competition. So i guess, and i deeply hope that will never ever happen to TJ. PLease. NO.
In this world the only thing constant is change. Miak is right, At least for now.
sighz.
Alright, gotta go to a wedding at church le. And at night got granny's bdae dinner. Guess i'll be home late today. so tired.
*eh. sorry about e 黄成 thing. haha... i changed le (if not 被打。)
Joyce at 11:23 AM
Birthday Celebration
ARGH.
迟早被逼疯！！！！
I feel so annoyed i feel like just really really disappearing from the face of earth and never be bothered by another sms telling me i have to do this do that.... ARGH!!!!
I happen to be blog hopping when i saw this fren's fren blog. I saw some photos of her bdae celebration. A sharp pang rose in me. sigh. I envy her to a certain extent though i dunno her personally. My birthday drifted to mind and i bit my lip, by reflex.
I feel so down today. Since those sms kept coming in. And somehow. Now i feel so much worse. cuz my birthday has become a pretty sad topic for me. since... well... nvm. hai. 算了.我明白。我不会怪你的。
够烦了。Yet another sms just came in. Same person that has been calling and sms-ing me all day. I'm sorry, but i feel so pressurized already. stop it. please.
好想大声喊：让我休息一下，可以吗？算我求求你。。。
Joyce at 9:39 PM
迟早被逼疯！！！！
I feel so annoyed i feel like just really really disappearing from the face of earth and never be bothered by another sms telling me i have to do this do that.... ARGH!!!!
I happen to be blog hopping when i saw this fren's fren blog. I saw some photos of her bdae celebration. A sharp pang rose in me. sigh. I envy her to a certain extent though i dunno her personally. My birthday drifted to mind and i bit my lip, by reflex.
I feel so down today. Since those sms kept coming in. And somehow. Now i feel so much worse. cuz my birthday has become a pretty sad topic for me. since... well... nvm. hai. 算了.我明白。我不会怪你的。
够烦了。Yet another sms just came in. Same person that has been calling and sms-ing me all day. I'm sorry, but i feel so pressurized already. stop it. please.
好想大声喊：让我休息一下，可以吗？算我求求你。。。
Joyce at 9:39 PM
片刻的休息
今天又病了。唉。。。昨晚就不舒服了，连睡都睡不着。早上起来，都已准备好上学去了，上了车，到了弟弟学校时，才开始觉得昨天的不舒服都回来了。所以最后爸爸把车绕了回家。在回家的路上还一直踌躇是否要上学，因为升级考试要到了，缺课不好。也因为想到很多准备好今天要做的事，不怎么安心。一路上，不断地传简讯通知很多人今天我不上学了。到了家，躺在床上还是很不放心。。。
怎么把相机pass给Kee Liang.
Li Si 昨天回家了，她家里应该没有PE tee, 所以我今天带了我的要借她。不然，她PE没PE tee一定被罚。
下午有语特特别试卷。不知道到时好了吗？
那时迟交mc得做makeup. (也蛮笨的。我的makeup PE就是坐在那里slack.因为不能PE嘛。)今天是最方便的，反正要等'S'paper,Li Si又是同个PE Slot,过后可以一起去上'S'Paper.
一直想着想着。想到最后睡去了。
Haha... Typing a chinese blog entry is pretty tiring... some more its not a 创作or anything. Anyway... After this morning i suddenly realised i can never ever have a day off to rest. Because even if i am sick. I have so much to handle and settle. I cant just happily disappear from college without a word before hand. And i was quite right. Was sleeping halfway when i received various calls from my PW group members. I was like almost dying liao and so weak and they just "Hey, why aren't you in school today?" wah, thanks. Wad was i supposed to say? Then they dealt out some work to me la. Then sms me later on and told me to check my e-mail for some work to be done by tomorrow morning. which i don even noe how i start. And i am not even well yet.
sigh. Guess it doesn matter. Even if you are one foot into your grave le, you still gotta finish all your work. If not you cant even die in peace, because pple will call u and tell u to finish ur stuff. ARGH. I'm not complaining. Just sudden realisation of this sad fact of my life now. Like just now, i just got an sms from someone
Bring $2 for LEP fund on monday.
wad a heartwarming and touching and thoughtful msg. THANKS eh.
Rest has been permernantly deleted from my vocabulary.And i'm not the one who deleted it.
But there's a good side to it too la. Hui Min, Jaime, Xin Ru and even the handphone-less Li Si were all sending their regards today. I'm really lucky to have them lor. (Btw, i did not miss out Chen Si purposely. She hasn been in sch for long cuz she got chicken pox!) And i was quite touched by their concern and all. 谢谢你们！
btw: Someone called me today to ask me how to 撞墙。WELL... my situation was when the bell had to ring and all the seniors was flooding out of the classroom behind me and walking towards me and i just wanted to leave before everything and well... the floor was slippery cuz it was pouring that day. Find the same situation and u might be able to 撞墙 successfully. But of course, u noe there are other factors contributing to it. And the teeny details of it. so. ya. However. A word of caution... since that incident, i've heard no end of it from 彭老师。To understand the kinda feeling... ask Jaime abt her drain incident day1 of LEP camp. BEFORE LEP camp. hahaha.
sigh. i wanna rest now. while waiting for that e-mail reply from my PW group leader. But i cant. I'm too worked up over all the stuff going on. 心静不下来。
Joyce at 8:49 PM
怎么把相机pass给Kee Liang.
Li Si 昨天回家了，她家里应该没有PE tee, 所以我今天带了我的要借她。不然，她PE没PE tee一定被罚。
下午有语特特别试卷。不知道到时好了吗？
那时迟交mc得做makeup. (也蛮笨的。我的makeup PE就是坐在那里slack.因为不能PE嘛。)今天是最方便的，反正要等'S'paper,Li Si又是同个PE Slot,过后可以一起去上'S'Paper.
一直想着想着。想到最后睡去了。
Haha... Typing a chinese blog entry is pretty tiring... some more its not a 创作or anything. Anyway... After this morning i suddenly realised i can never ever have a day off to rest. Because even if i am sick. I have so much to handle and settle. I cant just happily disappear from college without a word before hand. And i was quite right. Was sleeping halfway when i received various calls from my PW group members. I was like almost dying liao and so weak and they just "Hey, why aren't you in school today?" wah, thanks. Wad was i supposed to say? Then they dealt out some work to me la. Then sms me later on and told me to check my e-mail for some work to be done by tomorrow morning. which i don even noe how i start. And i am not even well yet.
sigh. Guess it doesn matter. Even if you are one foot into your grave le, you still gotta finish all your work. If not you cant even die in peace, because pple will call u and tell u to finish ur stuff. ARGH. I'm not complaining. Just sudden realisation of this sad fact of my life now. Like just now, i just got an sms from someone
Bring $2 for LEP fund on monday.
wad a heartwarming and touching and thoughtful msg. THANKS eh.
Rest has been permernantly deleted from my vocabulary.And i'm not the one who deleted it.
But there's a good side to it too la. Hui Min, Jaime, Xin Ru and even the handphone-less Li Si were all sending their regards today. I'm really lucky to have them lor. (Btw, i did not miss out Chen Si purposely. She hasn been in sch for long cuz she got chicken pox!) And i was quite touched by their concern and all. 谢谢你们！
btw: Someone called me today to ask me how to 撞墙。WELL... my situation was when the bell had to ring and all the seniors was flooding out of the classroom behind me and walking towards me and i just wanted to leave before everything and well... the floor was slippery cuz it was pouring that day. Find the same situation and u might be able to 撞墙 successfully. But of course, u noe there are other factors contributing to it. And the teeny details of it. so. ya. However. A word of caution... since that incident, i've heard no end of it from 彭老师。To understand the kinda feeling... ask Jaime abt her drain incident day1 of LEP camp. BEFORE LEP camp. hahaha.
sigh. i wanna rest now. while waiting for that e-mail reply from my PW group leader. But i cant. I'm too worked up over all the stuff going on. 心静不下来。
Joyce at 8:49 PM
ear piercings
hmmm.
Dad bought me a bracelet+necklace+earrings.
But the thing is, i don have ear piercings, u see...
maybe i should get my ears pierced. hmm...
wad do u guys think?
Joyce at 10:59 PM
Dad bought me a bracelet+necklace+earrings.
But the thing is, i don have ear piercings, u see...
maybe i should get my ears pierced. hmm...
wad do u guys think?
Joyce at 10:59 PM
Too long a Blog
Somehow feel i haven been blogging lately. Hmm.. so here's my update.
不小心不理你。。。
Realised i've been dao-ing alot of pple unintentionally cuz my head forever in the clouds.
First is Denise. i always never see her greeting me. So i never greet back.
2nd is Kee Liang. That day i talking to Hui Min, den he walk past me and i saw HuiMin wave at him. After that Hui Min told me he was waving at me and i din respond, din even look at him, that's why she wave back. And apparently Kee Liang gave her a weird face. When i realised, i quickly turned back and went "Hi Kee Liang. Bye Kee Liang!".
Third person was my cousin. I din even notice when he call me lor. I juz sub-conciously heard someone calling me, so i shouted a hi. After walking for a while, i suddenly asked Xin Ru who that was. And she said, IVAN. OOOps.
Fourth was this girl. I think i know her. As in know her face, her name but not her personally. Somehow she waved at me on the bus. I din wave back of cuz, thinking she waving to someone beside me. So i turned to ask HuiMin if she knows her and HuiMin said no. She couldn have been waving to anyone unless that person vanished into thin air. Double OOOps. She was waving at me. Oh, now i recall. I think she's from LEO. ARGH. Pple from LEO actually know me but i dunno all 100+ of them lor. Geez. so technically not my fault?
Impromptu Visit
Was simply minding my own business in LEP room today during free period (Maths lect). Was reading an interesting article on the newspaper and so engrossed. When i finally looked up, i saw this guy with a camera hung on his neck staring straight at me. Woah. Scary. Then Mrs Hoo(our VP) came in, along with a PE teacher. Mr Goh, i think. And after asking how i was, she suddenly introduced me to two high sch principals from China. And she said "Why don't you tell them more about LEP." I seriously could have suffered from heart failure than.
Completely impromptu with NO ONE by my side to help me. One principal asked a stupid qns "他们会讲华语吗？", to which Mr Goh replied "我们 语文特选的学生华语都蛮优秀的。" OH geez. I almost died. Now i'm gonna completely tarnish TJC LEP's reputation. I crapped a little and seeing how they were fascinated by that 《红楼梦》 chart, i told them more about what we studied, 《红楼梦》，老舍《茶馆》, 唐诗，宋词 ,古文etc. Mrs Hoo looked happy. Which is good. She probably doesn understand, thus interprete it as it being chim enough. I told them about our overseas immersion(Cuz 浸濡计划学生－身体检查时间表 was written on the whiteboard.) and Mrs Hoo explained about the scholarships etc. Then they told Mrs Hoo we muz go visit them when we go over to China etc... and mRs Hoo actually said, "sure!"
Just when i tot at least things weren't so bad... Mr Goh spotted that set of 茶艺 stuff on the shelf. And he just HAD to mention that "我们的学生有空时，可以泡茶，喝茶谈天。" Which we so never do. I was stunned and juz praying hard that he doesn get me to demo 茶艺, which i din even attend that session held the other time and i know nothing abt it. I mean, i can only make Lipton tea at the very most lor. rawr!
Thank goodness the bell went at the moment, and Mrs Hoo led the principals to the next room and i quickly left the LEP block.
Today
Today i felt exceptionally blank. Just... blank. I was sleepy, perhaps. But i was weird... even Hui Min and Xin Ru sensed it, i think. Cuz Xin Ru kept asking me "你还好吧？" and Hui Min admitted i was really quite weird today when i told her i felt weird. haha. I dunno why. usually sleepy also not like that. Hmmmm... 怪怪的。
den i met Wan jing in the afternoon on one of the "for college" or "for nation" spiral stairs. My first reaction was to give her a big hug and told her how much i missed her and all the seniors and how weird and different life is without them. Haha. she told me muz study hard, don be like them (seniors generally), until prelims than start mugging. haha. Den she said stuff like next year i'll be senior, with my own juniors, more than her also. (Intergrated Programme and yr1s next year is 龙年, cohort sure bigger than our and our seniors.)But i told her i don want to be a senior. I like being a junior. esp with them as seniors. Sigh. I miss them so much.
Mandrain Gardens
Just came back from 裕华园. So tired now. And totally thirsty i juz gulped down a mug of chilled Ribena. Went with 50+- elderly form blk 12. It was pretty fun la, but super tiring. Imagine the 5 of us had to look after 50. Can die. Den cuz Ga Yeong and Yen Mei went off to SHOP at the mini fairs, and Michelle was WAY ahead with the faster old folks, me and Jun Ming went to collect the free lanterns ourselves. I had 9 tickets with me. So we collected and slowly lighted and opened up one by one the 9 lanterns. When everything was done, i wanted to take a pict for LEO album. So i got this couple to help us take photo. And of all things to say, the boyfriend who took the photo for us said something weird to me when he returned me the camera. Which I think Jun Ming did not hear la. But i heard quite clearly. Geez.
The 彩灯会 was pretty cool, cuz this year they have Disney lanterns. Like Lilo and Stich and Mulan and Bug's life and Beauty and the Beast and Hercules and Aladdin and Finding Nemo etc etc. It was quite cute la. I took abt 15 photos etc... then on the bus Ms Wong 才跟我讲 muz finish the roll of film by this sat. GEEZ. I could've taken more lor. aiya. i tot cannot waste. I took more shots of Nemo and Bruce and the tank gang etc which i know is David's fave. Maybe i can develop extra for him. Missing him.
Then later when it was time to leave, we did a headcount on the bus and realised 3 elderly were missing. The security guard was super rude and unwilling to let us go back in to look for them. So not knowing what to do, Ga Yeong suddenly realised Michelle haven come out, so we told her to search the place for the three of them. They were together apparently, resting and did not move on with us. Sigh. Thus, we got home later than expected and more tired too.
On the way to Mandrain Gardens we were made to sing for the elderly, each of us 5. And i am not that good at 老歌. Michelle sang 《月亮代表我的心》， someone sang 《甜蜜蜜》, Ga yeong sang that Barney song, Ms Wong sang "Old Macdonalds" which was super funny. And when it was my turn i stared at the mike for like forever before deciding to ask wad they want to hear. Haha... den the songs they wanted i dunno how to sing. Finally got one uncle asked for 《路边的野花不要採》which i actually know. haha. suprisingly. And the elderly liked it. The uncle later told me "你唱得最好听。" haha. which is a consolation. But on the way back, we were all far to tired to sing. Jun Ming and Ga yeong left on MRT from mandrain gardens. me, michelle and yen mei were like totally beat and don even have much strenth to talk. Some more just now that scare of losing 3 elderly and having to search 裕华园 for them.
Joyce at 10:22 PM
不小心不理你。。。
Realised i've been dao-ing alot of pple unintentionally cuz my head forever in the clouds.
First is Denise. i always never see her greeting me. So i never greet back.
2nd is Kee Liang. That day i talking to Hui Min, den he walk past me and i saw HuiMin wave at him. After that Hui Min told me he was waving at me and i din respond, din even look at him, that's why she wave back. And apparently Kee Liang gave her a weird face. When i realised, i quickly turned back and went "Hi Kee Liang. Bye Kee Liang!".
Third person was my cousin. I din even notice when he call me lor. I juz sub-conciously heard someone calling me, so i shouted a hi. After walking for a while, i suddenly asked Xin Ru who that was. And she said, IVAN. OOOps.
Fourth was this girl. I think i know her. As in know her face, her name but not her personally. Somehow she waved at me on the bus. I din wave back of cuz, thinking she waving to someone beside me. So i turned to ask HuiMin if she knows her and HuiMin said no. She couldn have been waving to anyone unless that person vanished into thin air. Double OOOps. She was waving at me. Oh, now i recall. I think she's from LEO. ARGH. Pple from LEO actually know me but i dunno all 100+ of them lor. Geez. so technically not my fault?
Impromptu Visit
Was simply minding my own business in LEP room today during free period (Maths lect). Was reading an interesting article on the newspaper and so engrossed. When i finally looked up, i saw this guy with a camera hung on his neck staring straight at me. Woah. Scary. Then Mrs Hoo(our VP) came in, along with a PE teacher. Mr Goh, i think. And after asking how i was, she suddenly introduced me to two high sch principals from China. And she said "Why don't you tell them more about LEP." I seriously could have suffered from heart failure than.
Completely impromptu with NO ONE by my side to help me. One principal asked a stupid qns "他们会讲华语吗？", to which Mr Goh replied "我们 语文特选的学生华语都蛮优秀的。" OH geez. I almost died. Now i'm gonna completely tarnish TJC LEP's reputation. I crapped a little and seeing how they were fascinated by that 《红楼梦》 chart, i told them more about what we studied, 《红楼梦》，老舍《茶馆》, 唐诗，宋词 ,古文etc. Mrs Hoo looked happy. Which is good. She probably doesn understand, thus interprete it as it being chim enough. I told them about our overseas immersion(Cuz 浸濡计划学生－身体检查时间表 was written on the whiteboard.) and Mrs Hoo explained about the scholarships etc. Then they told Mrs Hoo we muz go visit them when we go over to China etc... and mRs Hoo actually said, "sure!"
Just when i tot at least things weren't so bad... Mr Goh spotted that set of 茶艺 stuff on the shelf. And he just HAD to mention that "我们的学生有空时，可以泡茶，喝茶谈天。" Which we so never do. I was stunned and juz praying hard that he doesn get me to demo 茶艺, which i din even attend that session held the other time and i know nothing abt it. I mean, i can only make Lipton tea at the very most lor. rawr!
Thank goodness the bell went at the moment, and Mrs Hoo led the principals to the next room and i quickly left the LEP block.
Today
Today i felt exceptionally blank. Just... blank. I was sleepy, perhaps. But i was weird... even Hui Min and Xin Ru sensed it, i think. Cuz Xin Ru kept asking me "你还好吧？" and Hui Min admitted i was really quite weird today when i told her i felt weird. haha. I dunno why. usually sleepy also not like that. Hmmmm... 怪怪的。
den i met Wan jing in the afternoon on one of the "for college" or "for nation" spiral stairs. My first reaction was to give her a big hug and told her how much i missed her and all the seniors and how weird and different life is without them. Haha. she told me muz study hard, don be like them (seniors generally), until prelims than start mugging. haha. Den she said stuff like next year i'll be senior, with my own juniors, more than her also. (Intergrated Programme and yr1s next year is 龙年, cohort sure bigger than our and our seniors.)But i told her i don want to be a senior. I like being a junior. esp with them as seniors. Sigh. I miss them so much.
Mandrain Gardens
Just came back from 裕华园. So tired now. And totally thirsty i juz gulped down a mug of chilled Ribena. Went with 50+- elderly form blk 12. It was pretty fun la, but super tiring. Imagine the 5 of us had to look after 50. Can die. Den cuz Ga Yeong and Yen Mei went off to SHOP at the mini fairs, and Michelle was WAY ahead with the faster old folks, me and Jun Ming went to collect the free lanterns ourselves. I had 9 tickets with me. So we collected and slowly lighted and opened up one by one the 9 lanterns. When everything was done, i wanted to take a pict for LEO album. So i got this couple to help us take photo. And of all things to say, the boyfriend who took the photo for us said something weird to me when he returned me the camera. Which I think Jun Ming did not hear la. But i heard quite clearly. Geez.
The 彩灯会 was pretty cool, cuz this year they have Disney lanterns. Like Lilo and Stich and Mulan and Bug's life and Beauty and the Beast and Hercules and Aladdin and Finding Nemo etc etc. It was quite cute la. I took abt 15 photos etc... then on the bus Ms Wong 才跟我讲 muz finish the roll of film by this sat. GEEZ. I could've taken more lor. aiya. i tot cannot waste. I took more shots of Nemo and Bruce and the tank gang etc which i know is David's fave. Maybe i can develop extra for him. Missing him.
Then later when it was time to leave, we did a headcount on the bus and realised 3 elderly were missing. The security guard was super rude and unwilling to let us go back in to look for them. So not knowing what to do, Ga Yeong suddenly realised Michelle haven come out, so we told her to search the place for the three of them. They were together apparently, resting and did not move on with us. Sigh. Thus, we got home later than expected and more tired too.
On the way to Mandrain Gardens we were made to sing for the elderly, each of us 5. And i am not that good at 老歌. Michelle sang 《月亮代表我的心》， someone sang 《甜蜜蜜》, Ga yeong sang that Barney song, Ms Wong sang "Old Macdonalds" which was super funny. And when it was my turn i stared at the mike for like forever before deciding to ask wad they want to hear. Haha... den the songs they wanted i dunno how to sing. Finally got one uncle asked for 《路边的野花不要採》which i actually know. haha. suprisingly. And the elderly liked it. The uncle later told me "你唱得最好听。" haha. which is a consolation. But on the way back, we were all far to tired to sing. Jun Ming and Ga yeong left on MRT from mandrain gardens. me, michelle and yen mei were like totally beat and don even have much strenth to talk. Some more just now that scare of losing 3 elderly and having to search 裕华园 for them.
Joyce at 10:22 PM
First Love
First Love
Sai go no kisu wa
Taba ko no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori
Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni iru n' darou
Dare wo omotte 'ru n' darou
You are always gonna be my love
Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki-dasou to shite 'ru
Wasuretaku nai koto bakari
Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Watashi wa kitto naite 'ru
Anata wo omotte 'ru n' darou
You will always be inside my heart
Itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
You are always gonna be my love
Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever...
Yay!! I finally found lyrics for that jap 'MinDan's' song i had wif me for so long... haha. din even noe the title... haha. quite nice song!
Joyce at 10:37 PM
Sai go no kisu wa
Taba ko no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori
Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni iru n' darou
Dare wo omotte 'ru n' darou
You are always gonna be my love
Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki-dasou to shite 'ru
Wasuretaku nai koto bakari
Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Watashi wa kitto naite 'ru
Anata wo omotte 'ru n' darou
You will always be inside my heart
Itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
You are always gonna be my love
Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever...
Yay!! I finally found lyrics for that jap 'MinDan's' song i had wif me for so long... haha. din even noe the title... haha. quite nice song!
Joyce at 10:37 PM
The kinda girl. like me.
WeELL.
It's almost 10.
should really sleep early. esp since my headache nv got better.
sighz.
sometimes i hate all these. why can't i be like a sport person. Or at least someone who enjoys jogging and netball. or something. I feel so stupid at times okay. like all the time. though i know it's hereditary and stuff like dat. but still. It gets irritating la. when pple keep viewing u as super weak and stuff like dat. And sometimes i even feel that i am a burden to pple arnd me.
Than i wished i was some super genius kid who can do algebra at the age of 3 and invent something at the age of 5. And play about ten million instruments by the time she's 17. Or some smart kid that can understand something like econs. Or can actually mug properly, knowing exactly what she is reading. all the time. And be all serious and intellectual and grow up being a career woman.
I also wished i was the kinda super heck care kinda person. Like u can die in front of me and it wont even affect me. Like the kinda person with a heart of steel and stone. Like completely void of emotions and relationships do not matter at all. Because always caring is tiring. and a completely stupid thing. which i simply cannot stop doing. which means i am tired and stupid. Like i care so much abt pple but at the end of the day, the person prob doesn even noe u exist. And if i had no feelings, i wouldn feel the pain, the hurt, the toll of everyday life, the sorrow, the nostalgic feeling and the neglected, left out feelings.... i would be completely void of all that.
along with joy, warmth and love.
So i'm sorry. i cant be someone i am not. i'm sorry. i cant start being exceptionally sensible and super intellectual and all serious. I'll forever be a girl-next-door. the kinda girl many many pple like, but prob nobody loves. The kinda girl that just cares and loves her friends the way they are and started to learn to disregard the fact that they dont reciprocate nor care. The kinda girl that is not a dare-devil, but a boring boring person. The kinda girl that is not strong, not fit and quite easy to bully. The kinda girl that always gets herself hurt in the course of doing something that might benefit a certain someone. And end up with bleeding wounds and cuts and bruises. But a smile on her face, just because she put one on that person's face. The kinda girl that gets touched easily, by books, films and songs. The kinda girl that is constantly sleeping, dreaming, or day-dreaming. The kinda girl still with a hope for happily ever after. The kinda girl that still lives in her own fantasy world with castles amongst the clouds and green green pastures with cows grazing. A girl who had her self-confidence wrecked about a million times, and is now trying to re-build it. A girl who lived in a nightmare for many years till she saw a little light at the end of the tunnel. A girl who still holds on to her seemingly impossible dreams, because they are the reason she is where she is. A girl who loves just because. A girl like me.
sorry i can't be as good as you. But if i were you. I wouldn be me.
Joyce at 9:51 PM
It's almost 10.
should really sleep early. esp since my headache nv got better.
sighz.
sometimes i hate all these. why can't i be like a sport person. Or at least someone who enjoys jogging and netball. or something. I feel so stupid at times okay. like all the time. though i know it's hereditary and stuff like dat. but still. It gets irritating la. when pple keep viewing u as super weak and stuff like dat. And sometimes i even feel that i am a burden to pple arnd me.
Than i wished i was some super genius kid who can do algebra at the age of 3 and invent something at the age of 5. And play about ten million instruments by the time she's 17. Or some smart kid that can understand something like econs. Or can actually mug properly, knowing exactly what she is reading. all the time. And be all serious and intellectual and grow up being a career woman.
I also wished i was the kinda super heck care kinda person. Like u can die in front of me and it wont even affect me. Like the kinda person with a heart of steel and stone. Like completely void of emotions and relationships do not matter at all. Because always caring is tiring. and a completely stupid thing. which i simply cannot stop doing. which means i am tired and stupid. Like i care so much abt pple but at the end of the day, the person prob doesn even noe u exist. And if i had no feelings, i wouldn feel the pain, the hurt, the toll of everyday life, the sorrow, the nostalgic feeling and the neglected, left out feelings.... i would be completely void of all that.
along with joy, warmth and love.
So i'm sorry. i cant be someone i am not. i'm sorry. i cant start being exceptionally sensible and super intellectual and all serious. I'll forever be a girl-next-door. the kinda girl many many pple like, but prob nobody loves. The kinda girl that just cares and loves her friends the way they are and started to learn to disregard the fact that they dont reciprocate nor care. The kinda girl that is not a dare-devil, but a boring boring person. The kinda girl that is not strong, not fit and quite easy to bully. The kinda girl that always gets herself hurt in the course of doing something that might benefit a certain someone. And end up with bleeding wounds and cuts and bruises. But a smile on her face, just because she put one on that person's face. The kinda girl that gets touched easily, by books, films and songs. The kinda girl that is constantly sleeping, dreaming, or day-dreaming. The kinda girl still with a hope for happily ever after. The kinda girl that still lives in her own fantasy world with castles amongst the clouds and green green pastures with cows grazing. A girl who had her self-confidence wrecked about a million times, and is now trying to re-build it. A girl who lived in a nightmare for many years till she saw a little light at the end of the tunnel. A girl who still holds on to her seemingly impossible dreams, because they are the reason she is where she is. A girl who loves just because. A girl like me.
sorry i can't be as good as you. But if i were you. I wouldn be me.
Joyce at 9:51 PM
Mugging Days
Getting pretty stressed up seeing the pple arnd me mugging like siao le. It's scary, seriously, when you see like half the year 1 cohort already with their heads permernantly stuck in the books.
Than it gets worse when you hear about your best friend's study schedule. geez. Than u hear about loads of pple waking up in the middle of the night to mug before coming to school. Than you see SO MANY people just mugging day and night in all corners of the campus.
You start feeling this really bad feeling. Like it's a FACT that you're gonna flunk your promos. And you start panicking and picking up those books... and not knowing where to start from.
ARGH.
Like now i know why TJC = 3rd Mugger JC in S'pore.
And i really, seriously wonder how NJC and AJC survived.
Just now was like sitting in LEP room doing my GP listening to that hi-fi set in LEP room. That Pamela's CD, with 张信哲's ［过火］ as one of the songs. Than 《红楼梦》lesson came and Jaime and me juz rushed downstairs, leaving 木木 to switch off the lights and air-con. When i got downstairs, i suddenly remember the CD player like never switch off... so i asked 木木 学长, "楼上的［过火］关了吗？等一下着火就惨了。" And 木木，Jaime started laughing like siaoz....
Sigh... studied a bit of econs... haven started much on LEP... Lit nv even touch.
I am such a goner.
Joyce at 8:58 PM
Than it gets worse when you hear about your best friend's study schedule. geez. Than u hear about loads of pple waking up in the middle of the night to mug before coming to school. Than you see SO MANY people just mugging day and night in all corners of the campus.
You start feeling this really bad feeling. Like it's a FACT that you're gonna flunk your promos. And you start panicking and picking up those books... and not knowing where to start from.
ARGH.
Like now i know why TJC = 3rd Mugger JC in S'pore.
And i really, seriously wonder how NJC and AJC survived.
Just now was like sitting in LEP room doing my GP listening to that hi-fi set in LEP room. That Pamela's CD, with 张信哲's ［过火］ as one of the songs. Than 《红楼梦》lesson came and Jaime and me juz rushed downstairs, leaving 木木 to switch off the lights and air-con. When i got downstairs, i suddenly remember the CD player like never switch off... so i asked 木木 学长, "楼上的［过火］关了吗？等一下着火就惨了。" And 木木，Jaime started laughing like siaoz....
Sigh... studied a bit of econs... haven started much on LEP... Lit nv even touch.
I am such a goner.
Joyce at 8:58 PM
Double J
Been some time since i posted photos yah?
My direct year 3 senior.... Jessica. And me. The first time i told the yr 3 seniors my name, they immediately went "Jessica. Joyce. Double J!!!" and got so over-enthu. so cute...
Btw. if u realise... as usual, my TJ collar pin and LEO badge is upside down.hahaha
Joyce at 1:23 PM
My direct year 3 senior.... Jessica. And me. The first time i told the yr 3 seniors my name, they immediately went "Jessica. Joyce. Double J!!!" and got so over-enthu. so cute...
Btw. if u realise... as usual, my TJ collar pin and LEO badge is upside down.hahaha
Joyce at 1:23 PM
Friends. Forever.
Was just logging on today when i remembered that its Shiwei's bdae today. OH my. i almost forgot!!! Than i quickly sms-ed him and he was all cool and nice like he usually is. Been sometime since i saw him for more than 5 mins before he disappeared. Much less talk to him. Except last sun when i was talking to my cousin, Jason, the one from AJC, abt my promos and JCT thingy... and shiwei was sitting beside. He just told me "Fail la... fail everything la... nvm one." haha. crap guy. Kinda miss him and all his crap. Din see much of him since i got into JC and he got into NS. And he's like forever missing from church.
Well, he's still this good fren la, one i treasure alot, but just kinda not so close now. Last time got alot of time mah, to chat on the phone, go out as that huge group... go town,go watch movie wadeva. Haha... those were the slacking days. seriously.
Then i suddenly feel that i miss Jamie alot. So i went to her blog and started reading from her archives- Goodbye Singapore, Hello HongKong or something like dat. I "followed" her "adventures" at her new sch and new location. It was like SO COOL and so... HOLLYWOOD MOVIE. and... so... not Singapore. Haha. dunno how to describe. It's like completely cool and wow. i almost wished i was with her. Budden, u prob have to take maths there. so... nvm. I'll settle with my college for now. heh.
But reading her blog is like... woah, exactly what i imagined my Uni life will be like. And the reason why i wanna go to UK or US(or at least, part of the reason). I guess pple there are much more open and a thousand times more friendly. Of course, crime rates are higher and culture is diff and so on... but seriously, i want that experience!! Hearing Jamie talked abt the jazz nitez, real rooftop parties, dorm life, room mates, meeting pple from like a million countries, watching the popular girls clique etc....
In Singapore u don haf that lo. Like yea, u have popular girls and all that, but they don call themselves a certain name (u noe, like in Mean Girls, the plastics or something. din watch so dunno for sure.)and is not a clique in the limelight etc. I don want to be a popular girl, but it'll be interesting to watch these clear definations of cliques. Like u watch in hollywood movies. Haha. UWC in HK is like so cool... of course, that might be cause its United WORLD college, and not just some regular HK sch.
And Jamie is still so... jamie. Love her. She's still so cute and adorable and all. And i can imagine she's still as pink and as fun and still the intelligent and smart bimbo she is. haha. hugs, jam! She deserves all this fun and this big treat. Have fun girl. Missing u lots.
I never did found anyone quite like jam in TJ. I mean. I really really like my friends in TJ. But i guess i've never met another Jamie. And prob never will. TJ is not a place for Jamies. It's fun, and interesting. But in a totally diff way la. I never did meet another gal that told me it's alright to like pink. And it's alright to just have fun and unwind. And really just chill out. I never had sleepover parties, no crazy CG outings. No slacking around just chatting. No more CG private meetings in the library reading room (muz book early, the one with the ikea sofas etc. 04A1's fave).There's not even one adjective to describe jamie. Just... Jamie. haha. I guess i never did appreciate all those stuff. I even thought we were too slack. Which i still think we were. But it was fun. really fun. Now that i never get to hear anyone talk abt guys the way jamie does, i actually miss it. haha. i never did get into it, cuz i din noe those guys well anyway. But still, it was so uniquely Jamie.
I guess i really do miss her. And Ginny, Ruth, Hannah, Siew Tee, Alson, William, Sherry, Angie, Iona etc etc.... 04A1. and of course, mr tong. the best CT ever.
*Hmm... i just received the weirdest msn message from the weirdest possible person.*
Joyce at 11:17 AM
Well, he's still this good fren la, one i treasure alot, but just kinda not so close now. Last time got alot of time mah, to chat on the phone, go out as that huge group... go town,go watch movie wadeva. Haha... those were the slacking days. seriously.
Then i suddenly feel that i miss Jamie alot. So i went to her blog and started reading from her archives- Goodbye Singapore, Hello HongKong or something like dat. I "followed" her "adventures" at her new sch and new location. It was like SO COOL and so... HOLLYWOOD MOVIE. and... so... not Singapore. Haha. dunno how to describe. It's like completely cool and wow. i almost wished i was with her. Budden, u prob have to take maths there. so... nvm. I'll settle with my college for now. heh.
But reading her blog is like... woah, exactly what i imagined my Uni life will be like. And the reason why i wanna go to UK or US(or at least, part of the reason). I guess pple there are much more open and a thousand times more friendly. Of course, crime rates are higher and culture is diff and so on... but seriously, i want that experience!! Hearing Jamie talked abt the jazz nitez, real rooftop parties, dorm life, room mates, meeting pple from like a million countries, watching the popular girls clique etc....
In Singapore u don haf that lo. Like yea, u have popular girls and all that, but they don call themselves a certain name (u noe, like in Mean Girls, the plastics or something. din watch so dunno for sure.)and is not a clique in the limelight etc. I don want to be a popular girl, but it'll be interesting to watch these clear definations of cliques. Like u watch in hollywood movies. Haha. UWC in HK is like so cool... of course, that might be cause its United WORLD college, and not just some regular HK sch.
And Jamie is still so... jamie. Love her. She's still so cute and adorable and all. And i can imagine she's still as pink and as fun and still the intelligent and smart bimbo she is. haha. hugs, jam! She deserves all this fun and this big treat. Have fun girl. Missing u lots.
I never did found anyone quite like jam in TJ. I mean. I really really like my friends in TJ. But i guess i've never met another Jamie. And prob never will. TJ is not a place for Jamies. It's fun, and interesting. But in a totally diff way la. I never did meet another gal that told me it's alright to like pink. And it's alright to just have fun and unwind. And really just chill out. I never had sleepover parties, no crazy CG outings. No slacking around just chatting. No more CG private meetings in the library reading room (muz book early, the one with the ikea sofas etc. 04A1's fave).There's not even one adjective to describe jamie. Just... Jamie. haha. I guess i never did appreciate all those stuff. I even thought we were too slack. Which i still think we were. But it was fun. really fun. Now that i never get to hear anyone talk abt guys the way jamie does, i actually miss it. haha. i never did get into it, cuz i din noe those guys well anyway. But still, it was so uniquely Jamie.
I guess i really do miss her. And Ginny, Ruth, Hannah, Siew Tee, Alson, William, Sherry, Angie, Iona etc etc.... 04A1. and of course, mr tong. the best CT ever.
*Hmm... i just received the weirdest msn message from the weirdest possible person.*
Joyce at 11:17 AM
17th September Diary Entry
*The Below extract is from my own personal journal. I just needed a place to write, since my personal journal (on my com) kinda malfunctioned. U may skip it though. Just some junky thoughts, please don get offended, anyone... *strong>
this morning i fainted in school. And knocked the back of my head against i also dunno wad, either the canteen chair or the floor. haiz... and feeling super groggy even until now. Thankfully i have a group of frenz that care. Like they took turns keeping me company till my dad came to pick me up. They cheered me up alot... chatting with me in the sick bay. The teachers around were all super nice and all. Felt pretty touched, although i din admit it to Li Si when she asked. When i got home, I tried to sleep, but i kept having nightmares. I tried to do work or something but i felt so giddy and my head was super heavy. So i just slept and keep waking up cuz of the nightmares.
I'm blogging now cuz i don really dare to go n sleep in case i get the nightmares again. But my head feels like its stuck in a mist or within the clouds or something. I just developed my LEO investiture photos and they cost so much my jaw was left hanging. well. basically cuz there were abt 76 photos. And i din exactly count since i was like having this thick fog in my head. Until i clicked done and saw the final price. woah.
I'm stressed abt promos, but the more stress i am, the less better i can study. I'm getting more and more afraid of M.G. My PW still got alot to do and edit. I still don understand anything abt elasticity in econs. And i'm not good at all other topics either. I haven started on 古文. or 唐诗。 I've had headaches the entire week and my heavy head has been so for the same period of time. Even sleeping din help.
My birthday falls during study leave, and a day before my bro's PSLE = cannot celebrate, nobody to celebrate with, since wont be seeing sch frenz and seniors + the stress of promos. nobody would remember too, since its promos periods and mugging period for the seniors. And no one in church ever remembers, though i'll be seeing them during that weekend. Like Zhi Qing and Xin Yi promised me bdae presents on my bdae... 3 years ago. I haven heard anything abt it since than.
What i'll really like is just a day out with my best frenz from sch on sat... and a meal with Chia Yi, 姐 etc on sunday. And i had hoped Andrew and Wan Jing would remember. But i guess that's really too much to ask for. Afterall i cant possibly thwart anyone's study schedule just for something as trival as my bdae. I asked Li Si, Jaime, Chen Si and Hui Min, and they all said they will come out for a meal with me on sat, but i still feel bad asking them out during study leave. And 姐 has choir. And Chia Yi prob wont have time. The biggest gift would be just spending the day with them... i guess. And i'd thought at least my B.O.D will remember, but just remembered i wont even be seeing them lor. I kinda 羡慕 that lousy attempt of a suprise the B.O.D tried to give Arthur and Eunice now. Andrew and Wan Jing promised me they would remember, and that they'd buy this and that for me. But i guess now, they've probably clean forgotten abt it. What wif their As coming etc. It seems so long ago when i went shopping with Andrew and he asked me wad i wanted for my bdae. And if he could get me a bubble gun for my bdae (long story). i guess i've never gotten wad i really wanted. And i'm not about to get it either.
i should really just bang into the wall again.
Joyce at 10:33 PM
this morning i fainted in school. And knocked the back of my head against i also dunno wad, either the canteen chair or the floor. haiz... and feeling super groggy even until now. Thankfully i have a group of frenz that care. Like they took turns keeping me company till my dad came to pick me up. They cheered me up alot... chatting with me in the sick bay. The teachers around were all super nice and all. Felt pretty touched, although i din admit it to Li Si when she asked. When i got home, I tried to sleep, but i kept having nightmares. I tried to do work or something but i felt so giddy and my head was super heavy. So i just slept and keep waking up cuz of the nightmares.
I'm blogging now cuz i don really dare to go n sleep in case i get the nightmares again. But my head feels like its stuck in a mist or within the clouds or something. I just developed my LEO investiture photos and they cost so much my jaw was left hanging. well. basically cuz there were abt 76 photos. And i din exactly count since i was like having this thick fog in my head. Until i clicked done and saw the final price. woah.
I'm stressed abt promos, but the more stress i am, the less better i can study. I'm getting more and more afraid of M.G. My PW still got alot to do and edit. I still don understand anything abt elasticity in econs. And i'm not good at all other topics either. I haven started on 古文. or 唐诗。 I've had headaches the entire week and my heavy head has been so for the same period of time. Even sleeping din help.
My birthday falls during study leave, and a day before my bro's PSLE = cannot celebrate, nobody to celebrate with, since wont be seeing sch frenz and seniors + the stress of promos. nobody would remember too, since its promos periods and mugging period for the seniors. And no one in church ever remembers, though i'll be seeing them during that weekend. Like Zhi Qing and Xin Yi promised me bdae presents on my bdae... 3 years ago. I haven heard anything abt it since than.
What i'll really like is just a day out with my best frenz from sch on sat... and a meal with Chia Yi, 姐 etc on sunday. And i had hoped Andrew and Wan Jing would remember. But i guess that's really too much to ask for. Afterall i cant possibly thwart anyone's study schedule just for something as trival as my bdae. I asked Li Si, Jaime, Chen Si and Hui Min, and they all said they will come out for a meal with me on sat, but i still feel bad asking them out during study leave. And 姐 has choir. And Chia Yi prob wont have time. The biggest gift would be just spending the day with them... i guess. And i'd thought at least my B.O.D will remember, but just remembered i wont even be seeing them lor. I kinda 羡慕 that lousy attempt of a suprise the B.O.D tried to give Arthur and Eunice now. Andrew and Wan Jing promised me they would remember, and that they'd buy this and that for me. But i guess now, they've probably clean forgotten abt it. What wif their As coming etc. It seems so long ago when i went shopping with Andrew and he asked me wad i wanted for my bdae. And if he could get me a bubble gun for my bdae (long story). i guess i've never gotten wad i really wanted. And i'm not about to get it either.
i should really just bang into the wall again.
Joyce at 10:33 PM
Termites and my pregnant PE teacher
haha... today wuz a fast paced day, for some reason or other. Was with Hui Min most of the time.
This morning civics was held in the termite room!!! ARGH. Than this clerk came in halfway and whispered in this urgent voice "This is the termite room!! The termites are not yet exterminated, they will fall on you and wriggle wriggle." 真的有必要la... den the worse thing was, M.G said "IT'S OKAY." and we continued our civics (which she used for econs) there. She is heartless, i tell u, with no regard for student welfare. And she even gave us a lecture on how we should be more hardy and how everest is easier to climb for guys... and she said we muz learn from kai leng, who is the toughest gal in our class. But at that moment she was saying this, Kai Leng went "EEEEeee...." as she heard about the termites. hahaha.... Kai Leng is always so cute, so funny. M.G can love her termites, but we don lo. Then Siu Fen sitting beside me asked me "what does a termite look like?" in a worried tone... and everyone started feeling a bit more itchy etc... and no one dared to lean against the wood anymore. might be 心理作用，but STILL, It's M.G fault lo.
Then, econs lecture test was... as usual. After the test, Jaime suddenly came and tell me today got 默写。。。 then the two of us running to LEP room, on the way memorizing the poem. 念-ing the 诗 as we ran, pple muz haf tot we were mad.... "国破山河在。。。" nvm.
During PE, i realised that mrs Goh is pregnant. She's so nice and so pretty... her baby will be gorgeous, i'm sure. And as nice as her. But the thing is, she is STILL teaching PE with her swelling tummy. Today they were playing medcine ball. That medcine ball is so heavy and she was holding it and hopping across the court. everyone's jaw dropped, as she demo for the PE class. Me and Geraldine mouthed to each other at the same time "BUT SHE IS PREGNANT!!!!" Than she threw the ball to Shee Mun and ask her to throw back. When she caught it, we sighed with relief, she almost hit her stomach!!!
sigh. just now eat the cake on the way home, i cut my lip without knowing, on the aluminium foil...came home than saw the bleeding wounds. Now i got like 5 cuts on my lower lip, cant even talk properly. very painful...!
sleeping soon. geez, tomorrow got remedial with M.G, i'm dreading it so much i probably cant sleep well later.
Joyce at 8:55 PM
This morning civics was held in the termite room!!! ARGH. Than this clerk came in halfway and whispered in this urgent voice "This is the termite room!! The termites are not yet exterminated, they will fall on you and wriggle wriggle." 真的有必要la... den the worse thing was, M.G said "IT'S OKAY." and we continued our civics (which she used for econs) there. She is heartless, i tell u, with no regard for student welfare. And she even gave us a lecture on how we should be more hardy and how everest is easier to climb for guys... and she said we muz learn from kai leng, who is the toughest gal in our class. But at that moment she was saying this, Kai Leng went "EEEEeee...." as she heard about the termites. hahaha.... Kai Leng is always so cute, so funny. M.G can love her termites, but we don lo. Then Siu Fen sitting beside me asked me "what does a termite look like?" in a worried tone... and everyone started feeling a bit more itchy etc... and no one dared to lean against the wood anymore. might be 心理作用，but STILL, It's M.G fault lo.
Then, econs lecture test was... as usual. After the test, Jaime suddenly came and tell me today got 默写。。。 then the two of us running to LEP room, on the way memorizing the poem. 念-ing the 诗 as we ran, pple muz haf tot we were mad.... "国破山河在。。。" nvm.
During PE, i realised that mrs Goh is pregnant. She's so nice and so pretty... her baby will be gorgeous, i'm sure. And as nice as her. But the thing is, she is STILL teaching PE with her swelling tummy. Today they were playing medcine ball. That medcine ball is so heavy and she was holding it and hopping across the court. everyone's jaw dropped, as she demo for the PE class. Me and Geraldine mouthed to each other at the same time "BUT SHE IS PREGNANT!!!!" Than she threw the ball to Shee Mun and ask her to throw back. When she caught it, we sighed with relief, she almost hit her stomach!!!
sigh. just now eat the cake on the way home, i cut my lip without knowing, on the aluminium foil...came home than saw the bleeding wounds. Now i got like 5 cuts on my lower lip, cant even talk properly. very painful...!
sleeping soon. geez, tomorrow got remedial with M.G, i'm dreading it so much i probably cant sleep well later.
Joyce at 8:55 PM
The Enemy
The rythmic pounding of the raindrops against the window pane,
heavier and heavier they knocked,
louder and louder the hammering got.
The outside view is obscured by a mist of rain,
only hinting sihouettes of people hurrying to shelter.
The bus left
splashing the puddles along the way.
Gripping tightly to the flimsy umbrella,
i walked into the dreaded battlefield.
The battlefield is a horrible place to be in,
with rain firing mercilessly from above.
Dodging puddles and holding firmly to my only weapon,
the walk continues.
My dull green waterproof uniform
had turned a darker, army green.
Protecting the notes in my file with my dear life,
i hugged it closer to me,
desperately trying to avoid the enemy,
whose mission is to wet everything it can land its hands on.
The pale yellow building loomed closer,
a symbol of the haven of rest,
the huge comfy sofa for a tired self.
With the motivation to get warm and dry,
i am led into the shelter of the lift lobby.
*hahahaha..... hahahhahaa....
i am amazed at my crapping ability to "spice up" my journey home.
I am a lit student. Yay!*
Joyce at 10:32 PM
heavier and heavier they knocked,
louder and louder the hammering got.
The outside view is obscured by a mist of rain,
only hinting sihouettes of people hurrying to shelter.
The bus left
splashing the puddles along the way.
Gripping tightly to the flimsy umbrella,
i walked into the dreaded battlefield.
The battlefield is a horrible place to be in,
with rain firing mercilessly from above.
Dodging puddles and holding firmly to my only weapon,
the walk continues.
My dull green waterproof uniform
had turned a darker, army green.
Protecting the notes in my file with my dear life,
i hugged it closer to me,
desperately trying to avoid the enemy,
whose mission is to wet everything it can land its hands on.
The pale yellow building loomed closer,
a symbol of the haven of rest,
the huge comfy sofa for a tired self.
With the motivation to get warm and dry,
i am led into the shelter of the lift lobby.
*hahahaha..... hahahhahaa....
i am amazed at my crapping ability to "spice up" my journey home.
I am a lit student. Yay!*
Joyce at 10:32 PM
Hmmmm
Hmmm.
Hmmm.
Was sitting right outside LEP room on the raised step by the railing. That place is kinda nice. Cuz everyone sticks in LEP room and if u want to be alone, its a great place to get a breather. No one will think of coming out to look for u.
Hmm.
Hmm.
Except half way thru Leonard suddenly waved at me from a distance... than came up to ask if i was ok. I guess when you sit there the way i did, you prob look suicidal.(The railing and the ledge has a big empty gap.)
But then again, maybe not, since 张老师 walked past me and i greeted him and he juz walked on. Haha. As usual, he is worse than a block of wood.
hm.
Hm.
Can't get that JingFu song out of my head... haha. cuz yesterday he kept singing in LEP room, until me and HuiMin had to leave the room in order to drink some water without spurting it out. And he said he heard this S.H.E song in HMV and kept singing it to himself... and he said it was written about him...
Guess wad that song was?
不害怕
不担心
我和劲夫（幸福）有约定
dotz.
Now the song is stuck in my head. JingFu version.
Joyce at 8:46 PM
Hmmm.
Was sitting right outside LEP room on the raised step by the railing. That place is kinda nice. Cuz everyone sticks in LEP room and if u want to be alone, its a great place to get a breather. No one will think of coming out to look for u.
Hmm.
Hmm.
Except half way thru Leonard suddenly waved at me from a distance... than came up to ask if i was ok. I guess when you sit there the way i did, you prob look suicidal.(The railing and the ledge has a big empty gap.)
But then again, maybe not, since 张老师 walked past me and i greeted him and he juz walked on. Haha. As usual, he is worse than a block of wood.
hm.
Hm.
Can't get that JingFu song out of my head... haha. cuz yesterday he kept singing in LEP room, until me and HuiMin had to leave the room in order to drink some water without spurting it out. And he said he heard this S.H.E song in HMV and kept singing it to himself... and he said it was written about him...
Guess wad that song was?
不害怕
不担心
我和劲夫（幸福）有约定
dotz.
Now the song is stuck in my head. JingFu version.
Joyce at 8:46 PM
No link look
haha... sorry. in an almost falling asleep mood when doing this new blog design. sianz. i like that picture. Had it for some time but din noe wad i could use it for. Hah. Sorry if the words colour not v clear. haha. can highlight the text and read bah. Haha.
Btw. If interested...
The tagboard and archives are at the bottom of the page.
scroll all the way down!
Joyce at 10:33 PM
Btw. If interested...
The tagboard and archives are at the bottom of the page.
scroll all the way down!
Joyce at 10:33 PM
First Day of Term... FINE?
er. quite an alright start to the term, esp seeing how i expected a horrible day. Dunno why, first days never goes too well somehow. hah. but this is kinda an exception.
Firstly. i survived M.G econs tutorial and somehow understood wad she wuz talking abt. For most qns i could give the correct answer before she went thru the answers. haha. and i did not copy the ans from the back. haha. I hope this can continue....
Then after sch was juz slacking in LEP room. haha. Those pple were playing cards, so they had to cover the windows in case. JingHui took the two big big《红楼梦》family tree charts to do that. And it worked well. Serious. Haha... Then there was music from some CD Pamela brought i tink... or ZiXin.
After that, S Paper was pretty interesting. We did some 联想 and 蒋老师 drew this circle on the transparency. It reminded Jaime of that dessert 蒋老师 gave to us<编委> on fri. Then i was reminded of ZhangHan. Haha.. cuz that day we cannot finish the whole box, so when the seniors came in we dumped the remaining to a 神志不清 Zhanghan who juz finished his LEP paper1. haha. And he actually ate it. Then the reminder of ZhangHan reminds me of that Disney music CD incident. As i've juz said, ZhangHan was in a blur state when he entered LEP room, den the disney CD we were playing had this ha ha ha laughter part in a song. Haha... and he entered at that moment. The CD player was behind him and he literally JUMPED when he heard the ha ha ha. And he exclaimed: 见鬼了！ And that whole scene was hilarious we couldn stop laughing abt it. The following 2 hrs plus, everytime he hears his name even whispered by us, he'll look frantically around. hahahah.....
Geez. That reminder was a stress relief. haha. he's so hilarious. sigh, i'm so tired now. gtg.
Joyce at 9:05 PM
Firstly. i survived M.G econs tutorial and somehow understood wad she wuz talking abt. For most qns i could give the correct answer before she went thru the answers. haha. and i did not copy the ans from the back. haha. I hope this can continue....
Then after sch was juz slacking in LEP room. haha. Those pple were playing cards, so they had to cover the windows in case. JingHui took the two big big《红楼梦》family tree charts to do that. And it worked well. Serious. Haha... Then there was music from some CD Pamela brought i tink... or ZiXin.
After that, S Paper was pretty interesting. We did some 联想 and 蒋老师 drew this circle on the transparency. It reminded Jaime of that dessert 蒋老师 gave to us<编委> on fri. Then i was reminded of ZhangHan. Haha.. cuz that day we cannot finish the whole box, so when the seniors came in we dumped the remaining to a 神志不清 Zhanghan who juz finished his LEP paper1. haha. And he actually ate it. Then the reminder of ZhangHan reminds me of that Disney music CD incident. As i've juz said, ZhangHan was in a blur state when he entered LEP room, den the disney CD we were playing had this ha ha ha laughter part in a song. Haha... and he entered at that moment. The CD player was behind him and he literally JUMPED when he heard the ha ha ha. And he exclaimed: 见鬼了！ And that whole scene was hilarious we couldn stop laughing abt it. The following 2 hrs plus, everytime he hears his name even whispered by us, he'll look frantically around. hahahah.....
Geez. That reminder was a stress relief. haha. he's so hilarious. sigh, i'm so tired now. gtg.
Joyce at 9:05 PM
Flying to China
Sian diaoz. Was trying to do my MCQ once again and worrying abt those case studies i haven finished when i remembered i had to get the photos of me and Hui Min for 《淡马锡文艺》under 编委之词...haha. and den my printer somehow met with some technical probz which i dunno how to solve. After about an hour of re-printing. I finally got my stuff printed. But it looks so weird scanned and printed. Hmm. nvm la.forget it.
tomorrow back 2 sch. I feel so unprepared. The holiday is so short. ARGH. Xiao Lei said that too. Haha, yesterday i got to know this new sister in church called xiao Lei3. She's from China and has been in our church for 3 months le. But i've never seen her till yest evangelistic meeting when she sat next to me. We talked a little, cuz i tot she wuz new and she tot i wuz new etc. Haha. turned out we both werent. And she is actually an air stewardess with SIA. And she is on flights from singapore to... CHINA. haha. when i told her oh ya, i going china end of year just to make conversation when i heard she's from China, she got super enthu. She started tellin me all abt China's tourists attractions etc and asked me when is my flight etc. She said she might be on my flight. Haha. Wont it be cute if i do see her pushing our air-meal down the aisle on the trolley thingy. haha.
sigh. and she also said "how come Singapore holidays so short? Longest 1 month? In China we have 暑假 and 寒假 which lasts 2 months each!"
I noe... i noe... sigh.
Joyce at 10:50 PM
tomorrow back 2 sch. I feel so unprepared. The holiday is so short. ARGH. Xiao Lei said that too. Haha, yesterday i got to know this new sister in church called xiao Lei3. She's from China and has been in our church for 3 months le. But i've never seen her till yest evangelistic meeting when she sat next to me. We talked a little, cuz i tot she wuz new and she tot i wuz new etc. Haha. turned out we both werent. And she is actually an air stewardess with SIA. And she is on flights from singapore to... CHINA. haha. when i told her oh ya, i going china end of year just to make conversation when i heard she's from China, she got super enthu. She started tellin me all abt China's tourists attractions etc and asked me when is my flight etc. She said she might be on my flight. Haha. Wont it be cute if i do see her pushing our air-meal down the aisle on the trolley thingy. haha.
sigh. and she also said "how come Singapore holidays so short? Longest 1 month? In China we have 暑假 and 寒假 which lasts 2 months each!"
I noe... i noe... sigh.
Joyce at 10:50 PM
driven mad.
ARGH. i am so frustrated with my mp3. I've tried the entire afternoon to try and solve the problem. Install... re-install... un-install... install.... its driving me mad. NOthing works. ARGH. connect. disconnect. why cant it juz work????? This yellow exclaimation mark signalling a prob is still there. UGH!
Anyone good at this kinda stuff? Need help. Thankew. Sigh... cant even find instruction manual or the whole casing....
Joyce at 3:33 PM
Anyone good at this kinda stuff? Need help. Thankew. Sigh... cant even find instruction manual or the whole casing....
Joyce at 3:33 PM
2
argh. Cant get my mp3 USB thingy to work. So weird. Geez. nvm la. gif up le.
Haha... was having lunch wif Jaime, den on i way home on the mrt nothing to do, so i re-read all my sms-es. From 1st 3 months till now! Haha. Saw Nathaniel's sms-es, that super fun and interesting small version of Wilber Pan. Saw Ming Boon's sms-es, she's about the nicest, most caring senior i know. And my 'affinity' with PE teacher Ms Audrey. Saw all those nice sms-es i got from alot of pple the night before release of Os results. Saw the sms-es i got from the same pple after my Os results were collected. My cousin. Yang Song. Andrew. Ming Boon. Nathaniel. Shila. Jamie. etc etc. Hmm... a bit miss those slacking days in NY. I mean, we seriously slacked lor. And going to Far East with Jamie and those free-periods that were long enough for us to go J8 for movie and back. And after school eating at J8 with Ginny, Jamie, Ruth etc etc. That rain and flood incident at J8. The first time going to J8. Walking arnd with the class. Mr Tong, the best CT ever. The cool GP lessons. Choir practices with Diana as my mentor. Man Li, the PRC scholar i talked alot to.
Sigh. reminiscing....Oh. Just saw Dana from my first 3 months OG. haha. She was on this debate in Central. haha... saw her in TJ a while ago... When TJ was hosting this debate thingy.
Er, ok. back to the sms-es. i juz suddenly noticed the two Jamie/Jaime.These 2 are so different. Jamie Yue from 1st three months was this really PINK girl. She would prob have been my best fren if i stayed on, since we hung out almost all the time during 1st three months. The long chats at Far East BK etc... the long afternoons of shopping, till we're completely exhausted. The searching for new year clothes. haha. In fact, she was the reason i started liking pink. She's just this cool pink, smart and brilliant, and really really nice, really super cute girl. She's always there for me, always chatting and stuff. She's amazing. Really. Then the Jaime i know now. Another great gal, but in a totally totally different way. She's not really GUY la, just super un-girl. She's cool, yet she really listens to me and is about my best fren in sch. We hang out ALOT. Talk ...I din noe i could be such close frenz with someone like Jaime, i really din expect it. Cuz she's.... so not Jamie. Hmm... but i guess this kinda thing can get suprising. But they are such great pple. Yet so so so different. Hah.
《淡马锡文艺》编委 hard at work today, was just rushing from LEP teacher's room to LEP room, rushing this and that. Being pressed for ideas and this and that. Was really happy when i saw the seniors stroll into LEP room. All of them, cuz today LEP paper. I CANNOT believe i FORGOT. I wanted to sms them and all... argh. But i did juz now la. So that's fine.
argh. so tired. going to lie down. nite nite pple.
Joyce at 9:46 PM
Haha... was having lunch wif Jaime, den on i way home on the mrt nothing to do, so i re-read all my sms-es. From 1st 3 months till now! Haha. Saw Nathaniel's sms-es, that super fun and interesting small version of Wilber Pan. Saw Ming Boon's sms-es, she's about the nicest, most caring senior i know. And my 'affinity' with PE teacher Ms Audrey. Saw all those nice sms-es i got from alot of pple the night before release of Os results. Saw the sms-es i got from the same pple after my Os results were collected. My cousin. Yang Song. Andrew. Ming Boon. Nathaniel. Shila. Jamie. etc etc. Hmm... a bit miss those slacking days in NY. I mean, we seriously slacked lor. And going to Far East with Jamie and those free-periods that were long enough for us to go J8 for movie and back. And after school eating at J8 with Ginny, Jamie, Ruth etc etc. That rain and flood incident at J8. The first time going to J8. Walking arnd with the class. Mr Tong, the best CT ever. The cool GP lessons. Choir practices with Diana as my mentor. Man Li, the PRC scholar i talked alot to.
Sigh. reminiscing....Oh. Just saw Dana from my first 3 months OG. haha. She was on this debate in Central. haha... saw her in TJ a while ago... When TJ was hosting this debate thingy.
Er, ok. back to the sms-es. i juz suddenly noticed the two Jamie/Jaime.These 2 are so different. Jamie Yue from 1st three months was this really PINK girl. She would prob have been my best fren if i stayed on, since we hung out almost all the time during 1st three months. The long chats at Far East BK etc... the long afternoons of shopping, till we're completely exhausted. The searching for new year clothes. haha. In fact, she was the reason i started liking pink. She's just this cool pink, smart and brilliant, and really really nice, really super cute girl. She's always there for me, always chatting and stuff. She's amazing. Really. Then the Jaime i know now. Another great gal, but in a totally totally different way. She's not really GUY la, just super un-girl. She's cool, yet she really listens to me and is about my best fren in sch. We hang out ALOT. Talk ...I din noe i could be such close frenz with someone like Jaime, i really din expect it. Cuz she's.... so not Jamie. Hmm... but i guess this kinda thing can get suprising. But they are such great pple. Yet so so so different. Hah.
《淡马锡文艺》编委 hard at work today, was just rushing from LEP teacher's room to LEP room, rushing this and that. Being pressed for ideas and this and that. Was really happy when i saw the seniors stroll into LEP room. All of them, cuz today LEP paper. I CANNOT believe i FORGOT. I wanted to sms them and all... argh. But i did juz now la. So that's fine.
argh. so tired. going to lie down. nite nite pple.
Joyce at 9:46 PM
Photoshop?
Sigh. Spent the entire morning working on 《淡马锡文艺》，the divider i am in charge of. Hahaha.... was laughing at it all the time. It looked pretty ridiculous, my attempt at trying to combine the two photos were only half-sucessful. It looked alright, but atrocious at the same time. hahaha... think Chen Si's gonna kill me. After 蒋老师, that is.
The thing is, its hard to find photos of couples in the sunset that are NOT stuck together. I cant find couples that are separated. Like seriously, almost all the couples are in a hug, or something or other, i cant even separate them. argh! But than again, thats why they are called a couple rite? sigh... makes my work a trillion times worse though. argh.
And now i cant get the words to change colour le! I cant even select it!!! ARGH. Help, somebody!!!
Joyce at 1:33 PM
The thing is, its hard to find photos of couples in the sunset that are NOT stuck together. I cant find couples that are separated. Like seriously, almost all the couples are in a hug, or something or other, i cant even separate them. argh! But than again, thats why they are called a couple rite? sigh... makes my work a trillion times worse though. argh.
And now i cant get the words to change colour le! I cant even select it!!! ARGH. Help, somebody!!!
Joyce at 1:33 PM
Rantings
sigh. 911. SOS. Somebody save me...
Been trying and trying and trying ever so hard to mug for econs. Working on looking through each topic, den doing that topic's TYS MCQ. Got to elasticity and got stuck there. Permanantlty. Do you know the agony? The imagining of Maggie Goh Liew Lian's face when she checks my TYS or decides to pick on me, FIRST DAY OF the last term?
I don want to think abt it. But seriously, i need help here!!!! But i dun really noe anyone whose econs is good. Like mostly pple just blank out and stare at the MCQ for an hour. And still blank. I am so dead.
WHY did i take econs??? Stupid me. I should've known i cannot work with numbers. NEVER. I cant do anything number related, like science, like physics, even mole concept in chem, maths, EVERYTHING. I can only work with words. why didn't somebody stop me when i wanted to take econs???? ARGH.
And all these econs mugging is eating into my LEP mugging time. And that is something so much more useful, so much more fun, so much more interesting, for me. Like i'd rather be memorizing 《红楼梦》or《茶馆》and chanting all those 诗词... i juz don wan to see numbers, i do not want to calculate the elasticity of income or price. ARGH.
sigh.
forget it.
No point complaining.
I am taking econs.
I can go ahead and fail it and see that big F on my As cert and i can kiss all scholarships, all sponsership goodbye.
Sometimes i wonder amd marvel and pple who excel with words, AND numbers.
Geez.
Why do i feel like such a big loser?
Joyce at 10:08 PM
Been trying and trying and trying ever so hard to mug for econs. Working on looking through each topic, den doing that topic's TYS MCQ. Got to elasticity and got stuck there. Permanantlty. Do you know the agony? The imagining of Maggie Goh Liew Lian's face when she checks my TYS or decides to pick on me, FIRST DAY OF the last term?
I don want to think abt it. But seriously, i need help here!!!! But i dun really noe anyone whose econs is good. Like mostly pple just blank out and stare at the MCQ for an hour. And still blank. I am so dead.
WHY did i take econs??? Stupid me. I should've known i cannot work with numbers. NEVER. I cant do anything number related, like science, like physics, even mole concept in chem, maths, EVERYTHING. I can only work with words. why didn't somebody stop me when i wanted to take econs???? ARGH.
And all these econs mugging is eating into my LEP mugging time. And that is something so much more useful, so much more fun, so much more interesting, for me. Like i'd rather be memorizing 《红楼梦》or《茶馆》and chanting all those 诗词... i juz don wan to see numbers, i do not want to calculate the elasticity of income or price. ARGH.
sigh.
forget it.
No point complaining.
I am taking econs.
I can go ahead and fail it and see that big F on my As cert and i can kiss all scholarships, all sponsership goodbye.
Sometimes i wonder amd marvel and pple who excel with words, AND numbers.
Geez.
Why do i feel like such a big loser?
Joyce at 10:08 PM
歌词
怎樣
我這裡天快要黑了 那裡呢
我這裡天氣涼涼的 那裡呢
我這裡一切都變了 我變的懂事了
我又開始寫日記了 而那你呢
＊我這裡天快要亮了 那裡呢
我這裡天氣很炎熱 那裡呢
我這裡一切都變了 我變的不哭了
我把照片也收起了 而那你呢
＃如果我們現在還在一起會是怎樣
我們是不是還是深愛著對方
像開始時那樣 握著手就算天快亮
＋我們現在還在一起會是怎樣
我們是不是還是隱瞞著對方
像結束時那樣 明知道你沒有錯
還硬要我原諒
重唱 ＊,＃,＋,＃,＋
我不會原諒 我怎麼原諒
日期
望著桌上罐頭的日期
猜想那個時候我會在那裡 我想到那裡
垃圾桶裡被撕掉的日歷
何時才能被循環回去 可憐的日歷
喔 星期几
喔 我懶得去理 我懶得去理
筆記簿裡滿滿的約定
昨天今天明天會約在那裡 就讓他決定
生活像是生了一場大病
唉 整天憋氣 我好想休息
＊喔 星期几
喔 沒有次序 沒有次序
＃修不好我的遙控器
找不到我的星期一
修不好我的遙控器
找不到我的下一個世紀
重唱 ＊
沒有次序 沒有次序
重唱 ＃
時間快轉
＊看窗外的風景 看天空藍得多麼熟悉
看日歷一頁一頁撕去 看自己老去
聽風輕輕吹襲 聽陽光笑得多麼美麗
聽耳邊傳來句句旋律 是自己聲音
＃如果可以讓現在停止不走
就不會害怕失去這秒的感動
如果可以重新選擇個夢
而夢會是什麼顏色
我的存在也會不同
＋時間快轉 它不停的快轉
旋轉 我跟著旋轉
失去方向 我沒有方向
迷失方向 我模糊了焦點
想不通太多事情呀 就把它遺忘
％時間快轉 它不停的快轉
旋轉 我跟著旋轉
失去方向 我沒有方向
迷失方向 我模糊了焦點
想不通太多道理呀 就選擇遺忘
就選擇遺忘
重唱 ＊,＃,＋,％,％
找不到 - s.h.e - 奇幻旅程
曾经相信
你就是我的唯一
忘记思考
生命其他的妒忌
不知不觉
深陷爱的浓雾里
竟然发觉我的视线已经
渐渐不清晰
于是我就这样
茫然失去了你的踪迹
翻开地图竟是
过去一对没用的足迹
*爱的方向找不到
我在你的心中 还剩多少
我的眼泪不重要
只要你记得
回来就好
外面世界吵又闹
你要小心照顾
自己好
没有了牵手和拥抱
请你千万保重
好不好 *
一起开始的旅程 - s.h.e - 奇幻旅程
忽然想到一起开始的旅程
这几个字有种温暖的气氛
如果用来形容我们
是不是很巧妙传神
从没想过事情会这样发生
原本陌生的人闯进了人生
从此生命中多出你们
也多出无限可能
******
一起作伴
一起游玩
一起分享
青春的宝藏
一起前进
一起转弯
一起想下一个梦想
my baby
you baby
什么都不想错过
用心感动
这旅程中
因你而加倍的感动
my baby
you baby
让我多记下一些沿路感受
那将会是我
最美最好的收获
*********
这是一段我们秘密的旅程
别人很难了解其中的兴奋
可惜我没空理会他们
我在意的只有你们
Repeat (2X)*****
未来还有很多事情要发生
丰富我这有人相伴的人生
只要我转身看见你们
每天都精采万分
感谢你愿意陪伴我
不然我将会多么寂寞
不然如何能把泪水
变成回忆的彩虹
Oh. realise 你们 is used, not '你'.
Maybe its not supposed to be '你', its abt friends.
Haha... okay then, dedicating it to all my best frenz...
(就是你们了啦。。。Jaime, Chen Si, Hui Min, Li Si, Chia Yi...)
and everyone that's been there for me (xinru, you're one of them too!)
hee. To think i was that slow.
他还是不懂
要说什么
杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪天寒又地冻
是不是到了
爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞
为什么当我推开门
他没有来拉住我
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
(ending 在第一时间拯救我)
要用什么
融化这一片沉默
在四周的冷空气里叹息化成烟飘走
过去的种种在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话泪就会先流
爱不是他给得不多
是不知道我要什么
都是背了太多的心愿
流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多心也有坠毁的时候
Joyce at 8:36 PM
我這裡天快要黑了 那裡呢
我這裡天氣涼涼的 那裡呢
我這裡一切都變了 我變的懂事了
我又開始寫日記了 而那你呢
＊我這裡天快要亮了 那裡呢
我這裡天氣很炎熱 那裡呢
我這裡一切都變了 我變的不哭了
我把照片也收起了 而那你呢
＃如果我們現在還在一起會是怎樣
我們是不是還是深愛著對方
像開始時那樣 握著手就算天快亮
＋我們現在還在一起會是怎樣
我們是不是還是隱瞞著對方
像結束時那樣 明知道你沒有錯
還硬要我原諒
重唱 ＊,＃,＋,＃,＋
我不會原諒 我怎麼原諒
日期
望著桌上罐頭的日期
猜想那個時候我會在那裡 我想到那裡
垃圾桶裡被撕掉的日歷
何時才能被循環回去 可憐的日歷
喔 星期几
喔 我懶得去理 我懶得去理
筆記簿裡滿滿的約定
昨天今天明天會約在那裡 就讓他決定
生活像是生了一場大病
唉 整天憋氣 我好想休息
＊喔 星期几
喔 沒有次序 沒有次序
＃修不好我的遙控器
找不到我的星期一
修不好我的遙控器
找不到我的下一個世紀
重唱 ＊
沒有次序 沒有次序
重唱 ＃
時間快轉
＊看窗外的風景 看天空藍得多麼熟悉
看日歷一頁一頁撕去 看自己老去
聽風輕輕吹襲 聽陽光笑得多麼美麗
聽耳邊傳來句句旋律 是自己聲音
＃如果可以讓現在停止不走
就不會害怕失去這秒的感動
如果可以重新選擇個夢
而夢會是什麼顏色
我的存在也會不同
＋時間快轉 它不停的快轉
旋轉 我跟著旋轉
失去方向 我沒有方向
迷失方向 我模糊了焦點
想不通太多事情呀 就把它遺忘
％時間快轉 它不停的快轉
旋轉 我跟著旋轉
失去方向 我沒有方向
迷失方向 我模糊了焦點
想不通太多道理呀 就選擇遺忘
就選擇遺忘
重唱 ＊,＃,＋,％,％
找不到 - s.h.e - 奇幻旅程
曾经相信
你就是我的唯一
忘记思考
生命其他的妒忌
不知不觉
深陷爱的浓雾里
竟然发觉我的视线已经
渐渐不清晰
于是我就这样
茫然失去了你的踪迹
翻开地图竟是
过去一对没用的足迹
*爱的方向找不到
我在你的心中 还剩多少
我的眼泪不重要
只要你记得
回来就好
外面世界吵又闹
你要小心照顾
自己好
没有了牵手和拥抱
请你千万保重
好不好 *
一起开始的旅程 - s.h.e - 奇幻旅程
忽然想到一起开始的旅程
这几个字有种温暖的气氛
如果用来形容我们
是不是很巧妙传神
从没想过事情会这样发生
原本陌生的人闯进了人生
从此生命中多出你们
也多出无限可能
******
一起作伴
一起游玩
一起分享
青春的宝藏
一起前进
一起转弯
一起想下一个梦想
my baby
you baby
什么都不想错过
用心感动
这旅程中
因你而加倍的感动
my baby
you baby
让我多记下一些沿路感受
那将会是我
最美最好的收获
*********
这是一段我们秘密的旅程
别人很难了解其中的兴奋
可惜我没空理会他们
我在意的只有你们
Repeat (2X)*****
未来还有很多事情要发生
丰富我这有人相伴的人生
只要我转身看见你们
每天都精采万分
感谢你愿意陪伴我
不然我将会多么寂寞
不然如何能把泪水
变成回忆的彩虹
Oh. realise 你们 is used, not '你'.
Maybe its not supposed to be '你', its abt friends.
Haha... okay then, dedicating it to all my best frenz...
(就是你们了啦。。。Jaime, Chen Si, Hui Min, Li Si, Chia Yi...)
and everyone that's been there for me (xinru, you're one of them too!)
hee. To think i was that slow.
他还是不懂
要说什么
杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪天寒又地冻
是不是到了
爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞
为什么当我推开门
他没有来拉住我
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
(ending 在第一时间拯救我)
要用什么
融化这一片沉默
在四周的冷空气里叹息化成烟飘走
过去的种种在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话泪就会先流
爱不是他给得不多
是不知道我要什么
都是背了太多的心愿
流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多心也有坠毁的时候
Joyce at 8:36 PM
LoOoOnG talk.
so tired now. Spent the whole day at David's place, playing with him and helping wei min to take care of him. It was fun, but super tiring. haha. Then i had a loooong talk with weimin, at least 2hrs bah. Hmm... need to reshuffle my priorities, i guess, and i'm so thankful for wei min. Who is someone i can always talk to. Haha. I mean, its just that i don dare to approach anyone else cuz i'm afraid i'll be bothering them. And the response i get usually is quite cold lor. Except from wei min. She really listens and does all she can to help.
I hope i can start to feel attached to pple at church like i use to. But somehow i never feel cared abt in church. Like i'm just invisible somehow and not important. And i've been so busy and everything. And when 姐left it was one big part vanishing. Now its re-adjusting time.
As for other of my probs, maybe wei min is rite. i should talk to Chia Ying, because he can help. Maybe only he can help. Only i dunno if he cares to listen or talk to me.
Joyce at 7:51 PM
I hope i can start to feel attached to pple at church like i use to. But somehow i never feel cared abt in church. Like i'm just invisible somehow and not important. And i've been so busy and everything. And when 姐left it was one big part vanishing. Now its re-adjusting time.
As for other of my probs, maybe wei min is rite. i should talk to Chia Ying, because he can help. Maybe only he can help. Only i dunno if he cares to listen or talk to me.
Joyce at 7:51 PM
姐's back.
oh. today at church, jia en sat beside meduring sunday service. Its been quite some time since i talked to her or wadeva. Its been a long time since i talked to anyone in church/my sunday sch class for that matter. She noticed my "disappearance" and understands wad i meant by being detached. hmm... den.... jie's back. Officially. And she hasn changed, not even one bit. Like, even her "sunday outfit" is the same as 3 months ago. But somehow it wasn real enough. I just looked at her for some time before saying: "Well. You're back. You haven changed at all." amd i din noe wad else to sae. Its pretty weird. ah well, i shld be able to register that fact into my mind soon enough.
And i went shopping with dad. For handphones. hahaha... i just felt like looking at hps. Brought home a whole pile of hp brochures. And took a liking to 2-3 hps. Haha. But i din buy anything. haha. for once.
Then when i got home, i suddenly got a call, from..... DAVID. I noe. I was so stunned when i picked up the phone and heard "i want 盈姐姐 to come david house." Even more shocked when i heard wei min in the background saying "David! Who did you call...?" I was all, goodness, since when David know how to use the telephone all by himself! Haha... Den later i called back and realised Wei Min has been calling me all night cuz David wanted to talk to me. hahaha.
Joyce at 10:39 PM
And i went shopping with dad. For handphones. hahaha... i just felt like looking at hps. Brought home a whole pile of hp brochures. And took a liking to 2-3 hps. Haha. But i din buy anything. haha. for once.
Then when i got home, i suddenly got a call, from..... DAVID. I noe. I was so stunned when i picked up the phone and heard "i want 盈姐姐 to come david house." Even more shocked when i heard wei min in the background saying "David! Who did you call...?" I was all, goodness, since when David know how to use the telephone all by himself! Haha... Den later i called back and realised Wei Min has been calling me all night cuz David wanted to talk to me. hahaha.
Joyce at 10:39 PM
dip in the pool.
ah. just came up from a dip in the pool, the one pathetic time in abt a zillion years. And too long nv exercise, nv swim or wadeva, i pulled a muscle. Luckily, it isn serious, at least can walk. A little bit pain only. Then after some time in the pool, when i got up from the water, i somehow crick my neck. hahahhaa.... accident prone.
But i think i shld seriously go down more. Only... i got nobody to go wif me! Any of u guys free tell me k... can come and swim. hahaha... =P
Oh, today was this big struggle to go YF or not. Dunno why, juz din feel like going, at least not wholeheartedly. Hmm... kinda feel detached to pple dere. And it is not everyday that i get to go out with Chen Si and Li Si. Sigh. But in the end i went, and left not long after it ended, cuz i felt so out of place. Everyone was talking to someone or other when everything was over. Everyone, except me, that is. So i left the room and called Soon Kiat to ask abt the competition thingy and called home and told them i eating at home. sigh. Muz be somethin wrong, usually i look forward to eating wif the youth. Maybe cuz Chia Yi, Chia Ying, Jie are all not arnd. No one to go home wif, no one to talk to.
The sermon was about buddhism and wad buddhists believe in. It was fairly interesting... but i was reminded of all those 《红楼梦》stuff. The quotes like "究竟到头一梦，万尽归空。" and "假作真时真亦假，无为有处有还无。" that i've been memorizing. haha...
Then this morning was rushing 淡马锡文艺 again. But had fun doing it(what i did this morning), actually. Only i was quite irritated over some stuff abt 淡马锡文艺. but nvm. "莫谈国事"。。。the quote Li Si and Jing Hui taught me. From 《茶馆》。hahaha.... and that thing abt 谁敢改变祖宗的something，谁就得掉脑袋。haha. cant get all these stuff out of my head. Cuz keep listening to them. haha. nvm if u dunno wad in the world i've been ranting abt. hahaha. i am too tired to write properly. Swimming is tiring.
Joyce at 10:39 PM
But i think i shld seriously go down more. Only... i got nobody to go wif me! Any of u guys free tell me k... can come and swim. hahaha... =P
Oh, today was this big struggle to go YF or not. Dunno why, juz din feel like going, at least not wholeheartedly. Hmm... kinda feel detached to pple dere. And it is not everyday that i get to go out with Chen Si and Li Si. Sigh. But in the end i went, and left not long after it ended, cuz i felt so out of place. Everyone was talking to someone or other when everything was over. Everyone, except me, that is. So i left the room and called Soon Kiat to ask abt the competition thingy and called home and told them i eating at home. sigh. Muz be somethin wrong, usually i look forward to eating wif the youth. Maybe cuz Chia Yi, Chia Ying, Jie are all not arnd. No one to go home wif, no one to talk to.
The sermon was about buddhism and wad buddhists believe in. It was fairly interesting... but i was reminded of all those 《红楼梦》stuff. The quotes like "究竟到头一梦，万尽归空。" and "假作真时真亦假，无为有处有还无。" that i've been memorizing. haha...
Then this morning was rushing 淡马锡文艺 again. But had fun doing it(what i did this morning), actually. Only i was quite irritated over some stuff abt 淡马锡文艺. but nvm. "莫谈国事"。。。the quote Li Si and Jing Hui taught me. From 《茶馆》。hahaha.... and that thing abt 谁敢改变祖宗的something，谁就得掉脑袋。haha. cant get all these stuff out of my head. Cuz keep listening to them. haha. nvm if u dunno wad in the world i've been ranting abt. hahaha. i am too tired to write properly. Swimming is tiring.
Joyce at 10:39 PM
Some of them are back.
Spent most of my time today in LEP room. Si Xiong came down for maths remedial and Zhang Han, GP remedial. Zhang han was trying to do his GP essay on globalisation and i helped him translate all his carefully thought out phrases, only that they were in chinese. Was rushing out those 创作稿, copying them out by hand cuz 蒋老师 said only can be handwritten, cannot type. argh. Anyway, i got to finishing them and handed them up. ugh. i left one on 彭老师's table. i hope she sees it. If not that's the end of that 创作。And it was the one i liked better!
Talked for quite some time with Si Xiong about everything under the sun. That guy is a real joker and very very nice to chat wif. haha... Talked abt wad we wanted to do after JC, talked abt the seniors (including himself), talked about his RV, talked abt TJC Chamber ensemble and more. haha...
Then my B.O.D did this really 丢脸 video for our seniors, which i realised will be played during farewell assembly. Oh my goodness. I think i'll just live under the blanket for the rest of the year. We're gonna be the laughing stock for a long long time. sigh.
And econs. I'm getting nowhere wif it. I actually understand, i realised. I can talk abt the concepts etc. But once Mdm Goh calls on me to answer some qns, i'll freak out so badly my mind goes blank. Then she'll think i dunno anything and start her nagging. oh no. 这样下去怎么办？
Joyce at 7:09 PM
Talked for quite some time with Si Xiong about everything under the sun. That guy is a real joker and very very nice to chat wif. haha... Talked abt wad we wanted to do after JC, talked abt the seniors (including himself), talked about his RV, talked abt TJC Chamber ensemble and more. haha...
Then my B.O.D did this really 丢脸 video for our seniors, which i realised will be played during farewell assembly. Oh my goodness. I think i'll just live under the blanket for the rest of the year. We're gonna be the laughing stock for a long long time. sigh.
And econs. I'm getting nowhere wif it. I actually understand, i realised. I can talk abt the concepts etc. But once Mdm Goh calls on me to answer some qns, i'll freak out so badly my mind goes blank. Then she'll think i dunno anything and start her nagging. oh no. 这样下去怎么办？
Joyce at 7:09 PM
今天心情没有一百分，but finally pass le.
Hah. For once in about a century, i actually felt happy today. Dunno why, as usual. But felt extra crappy and jovial today. And i enjoyed 古文 so much today!! Maybe cuz now that 彭老师 is taking us, 古文 got fun. Hmmm... now i have to re-type my 2 创作稿 going in for competition. And have to copy them out on 稿纸. The situation is that i think the effect if better if i type, but the requirements 好象是 must be on standard 稿纸. So i'm doing double, in case i can use my typed copy.
Went home been Hui Min today and we started thinking how it would be if i went ahead with my appeal to Chung Cheng. We would be in the same CCA and maybe the same ex-co even. We would have been close friends long before we entered JC etc. But then again, its too late to think so. And all things happen for a reason, who knows, if i'd went to Chung Cheng i wont be good frenz with Hui Min at all for some reason or other. Or maybe i wont appreciate TJ as much if i came with a whole horde of CCHS frenz.
What matters if i am very very very good friends with Hui Min now. And i hope we'll stay like that as long as possible. =P
Joyce at 8:51 PM
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Went home been Hui Min today and we started thinking how it would be if i went ahead with my appeal to Chung Cheng. We would be in the same CCA and maybe the same ex-co even. We would have been close friends long before we entered JC etc. But then again, its too late to think so. And all things happen for a reason, who knows, if i'd went to Chung Cheng i wont be good frenz with Hui Min at all for some reason or other. Or maybe i wont appreciate TJ as much if i came with a whole horde of CCHS frenz.
What matters if i am very very very good friends with Hui Min now. And i hope we'll stay like that as long as possible. =P
Joyce at 8:51 PM
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